Showing posts with label writing prompts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing prompts. Show all posts

Thursday, September 6, 2018

( amour fou )



( amour fou )

we leave
the house to ramble
when twilight stretches
we amble to the art gallery
where he insists on lingering
in front of extraordinarily tragic
post-war paintings on the second floor
we pass through halls lined with useless geezers
note their somnolent eyes, pouched cheeks, sadness
& corridors of the historical male gaze on the female body
he is always in a fevered search of earth-toned abstractions
while I loiter in the sublime aspect of following him around

***

My pal is back with poem prompts! I traded the crossword puzzle on my morning commute for a bit of pecking. The prompt: crazy love. I opted for translating it into French for the title and went to town and then paired it with a post-war Pollock.

Being able to write this poem opened up my chest. I’ve had my big fat head buried in the sand of late. I can’t get out of my own way. Writing always helps. I still feel grizzled and unsettled, unsure of myself, of everything. Writing helped me today. Grateful for that. It’s hard to need to open up only to be flouted. So silence, walls. Big thick walls. There’s nowhere for the drama to go but the page, right? At least this way someone is listening to something other than inside out anguish. Soul is tired. And still, I persevere.

Poetry!

In propinquity,
Nic

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

On A Yellow Legal Pad




On A Yellow Legal Pad

I have little patience for underdogs
& have made an ancillary vocation
of writing about it on a yellow legal
pad. Then, I also critique combative
pundits w/ playfully profane jibes &
use compassion to boost the intrigue.
You would not believe what I have
done behind the typewriter, breathed
life back into dead letters, crippled
souls, dismissed colorful anecdotes,
plagiarized, annotated gonzo action,
assembled assaults, executed orders,
rallied the troops, educed excitement,
splattered certainty, hollowed out the
sea, occupied a chair, unfolded fear,
invaded rival terrain, burned bridges
  … all while high on ethos. It’s how I
acquired admirers, groping for words
to define blood & bombs & bordellos.
I have little tolerance for curtains w/
scalloped edges, umbrella drinks, or
having to survey the distance among
things, shaping allegiance & verity.
Critical theory will likely be the death
of me. It all begins on a yellow legal
pad, all of it. And then the machine
swallows it whole – the quality of my
secrets laid bare for all to devour.

***

This poem kind of ran away from me and I had a ton of fun chasing it. My prompt pal likes to write on yellow legal pads. That fact caused me to launch into this ditty. It was a bit of a wild ride but arent’ they always? It’s worth the fear and faith to put a poem into the world.

In propinquity,
Nic




Tuesday, July 24, 2018

That's Entertainment



That’s Entertainment

an unreliable narrator
had an encounter w/ a
strange woman in a bar
& emerged unscathed
            hush

a fly-by-night relator
subtly tried to refract
onus after pestering a
gratified man to admit
            hush

an unscrupulous teller
attempts an alteration
to not revolve around
misfortunes of others
            hush

on the outside
looking in
every overture to the
language of
            small complex
stories

is mere
entertainment

a choose
your own
adventure
           

***

I thought about working on my ‘Sillyheart’ edit while I ate lunch today but I found myself pecking away at a poem.  Adam Baldwin added some new songs to a Spotify playlist and one of the gems was The Jam’s ‘That’s Entertainment’ – hence the title. I rolled a bunch of words around in my hands until I came up with the above.

I am also still working on a short story called ‘Corner Store’. It keeps bumping around in my brain so even with the edit on tap I have to follow through for Bertie and Mattie. I’ve got five pages written so far which is less than nothing but it is a beginning. It’s all in my head and yet I struggle to find the words. It’s terribly frustrating when you can see a story but it won’t land on the page.

Another heat wave has gripped the Maritime  and lack of sleep has me feeling a little queasy. I’m not one to complain too much about any weather anymore but I’m not enjoying the discomfort and the tossy turny nights. It makes me feel more stabby than poetic. Oh, the humidity. Stay cool.

In propinquity,
Nic


Monday, July 16, 2018

Three Things



Three Things

there are
three things
you should
know about
me

I
have
a deep
hunger
for
metaphors

possess
a strong
virtue for
creativity

&

am often
guilty of
purposeful
delay

***

It’s been a good while since my bud offered up writing prompts. I got one this morning so I opted to abandon my unfinished crossword puzzle and peck. It felt good.

I have been wrestling with a new short-story lately. I’ve got about three pages down but my brain is full of fog and noise so it isn’t coming as fast as I’d like. I seem to lack focus. I’d blame it on summer but I wrote every single summer day with Sillyheart last year so I can’t use that excuse. I suppose it’s just me with my private junk. I need to figure out a way to re-commit to creativity beyond poetry. I’m grateful for the poems but I want the meat and guts of fiction, I’m yearning for it. Perhaps that’s the problem? Wanting it so badly? It’s difficult to ascertain.

This little ditty came quite easily this morning on my commute while holding my breath as a result of weed smokers with poor hygiene. How I miss the weekend.  

Happy Monday, folks!

In propinquity,
Nic



Sunday, April 6, 2014

Trip The Light Fantastic


Trip The Light Fantastic

The sole metaphor is enveloped in childish delights.  A reversal of fortunes configured this reverie where I could not deny loyalty to amend my stumbles, straighten out my aloof posture under lingering clouds; I was reminded of refrains, twirling, and merriment.  My counterfeit heart accepted a half suggestive smile from a stranger, a warm hand and an invitation to trip the light fantastic.  Together we danced, nimbly and light through the emissions of alchemy’s one hundred brilliant colours, just to enjoy a moment simply for what it is.  We did this, coupled, just long enough for it to be enchanting to tell a tale of how glorious it is to shed sadness, breathe without thought, and revel in the ease of being.
Trip the light fantastic. 

 **

A writing exercise.  I had to choose from a small list of phrases, this one stuck out.  It also firmly planted 'A Whiter Shade of Pale' the classic earworm by Procol Harum in my noodle. Not the worst thing in the world by any means.

I am not highly motivated today.  I am tired and lethargic and can't decide whether I want to nap, walk or wrestle with my decisions.  It's one of those days where I just don't know what I want nor do I even know what to do with myself.  I am happy I managed to write a few words but I am empty above the neck in terms of inspiration, or maybe that's my heart?  Either way, I am feeling hollow in the creative regions of my being.  I dislike the feeling.  I long for that overwhelming burst of fever that comes with the flood of feel good-ness from being consumed by the Muse.  I'm wide open and waiting.

Happy Sunday.  ECMA broadcast tonight then it's back to the daily grind tomorrow.  Blech.  Could my lotto win be close?  *crosses fingers*

In propinquity,
Nic

Sunday, February 16, 2014

We Say Goodbye in Circles


We Say Goodbye in Circles

Lancaster,

It is always a day of constant rain and a solid refrain of roaring thunder.  It is always the same when I try to walk away from you.  I am bound by my practical wisdom to flee, surveying the exit and then feeling the expected sensation of the driveway gravel grinding into the arches of my feet through my flat summer shoes, trying to run so that when we say goodbye we do not say it in circles.  It is a pattern, a tearful farewell perpetuated by old ghosts that permit us to move in a slow circular motion from an almost ending and guilelessly back to the beginning.  It is a sequence of changes that veer us back into our original position.  It is time to break the cycle.  Time to set our burdens free.

It is your estimation that our bond is profound and irreversible, it is what you always say, how you ensnare me, convince me to stay.  You, who would rather foster something that is an old delusion and me, who would prefer to sever the tattered ties, mend the broken pieces and advance.  I no longer wish to meditate on perdition and set my sights on something more idyllic and peaceful instead of re-using old romantic tenements to convince ourselves we belong.

We belonged once.  But, we are nothing more than a short story.  A well versed poem even.  A history lesson at best.  My spirit is not arranged in such a way that I can pretend.  I do not wish to be immortalized in an orbiting, prosaic picture of what people perceive love to be.

I wish to make my departure soft and civil.  Let me run, in a straight line, in the weather.  Let us not circle the drain and let what goodness we’ve spun expire in vain.  I wish not to emaciate you on the inside as you’ve so crudely suggested, I wish not to harm you. I wish you well, I wish you love and I wish you contentment.  And more, I wish the very same for myself.  I desire it.  I need it.  These are things you can no longer provide, not because you are not every bit as lovely as you always were but because I am every bit as different as I ever was. 

You were a good companion.  A good friend.  And I promise you that I will regard you fondly when I take pause every now and then and look over my shoulder.  Your footprint in my sand is immeasurable and not without warm value. 

This goodbye is a straight line.  Linear and clean, honest.   Be well and be happy, I will follow suit, on another path diverging in a different direction.

With kindness,

Ursula

**

I had a hard time sleeping early this morning so I did a writing exercise off the cuff, based on the line that is the title.  I wrote for about fifteen minutes and this was the result.  I suppose I am missing Imelda and Brucha just a little to have it come out in letter form.  I was missing my creative self and my pile of notes is growing but my actual work continues to suffer.  It felt good, even if what I wrote in my sleepy haze is poopy, to write.  I've been a terrible blogger this month, I hope it is a fleeting thing.  I have to make sure it is.

Happy frozen Sunday.

In propinquity,
Nic

Monday, October 21, 2013

Look At Us



Look At Us

you saved my life
one evening beneath the stars

no signs to guide us
just your clever words

your confidence
keeps balance in the world

I am again with you today
saving your life in the sun

with the lure of writing
opening up before us

the wide expanse of the sea
the broad flight above the bay

between earth and cloud
between space and wet sand

we are right to marvel
we are right to travel

forward
together

look at us
look at you
look at me

our voices loud and laughing
sailing off beyond a mast of trees

mapping out colors with wings
skimming the tops of our heads

by some saving grace of heart
of starry nights and sunny morns

our presence upon this surface
faces the glory of light in which

we are made

**

My wonderful writer friend Haley will probably kill me for posting this but I found it today and feel like it needs to be shared.  She and I did a writing exercise based on the enclosed photo and mine came to me poem form.

I am working on 'Burden' and this sort of melted my heart thinking of my characters and their circumstances. It seems as fitting as it does opposing.  Eventually that will make sense, as in, when my story is complete.

I hope she will forgive me, after all, I'm pretty cute.

In propinquity,
Nic


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Page 51


I decided to do a writing prompt today since it’s been a full day that I wrote the first 1001 words of ‘Too Much To Contain’.  I was busy yesterday at work and then went straight home to get ready for the first my first Zumba class of the fall session.  For the next 11 weeks, that will be my Tuesday night.  I did also stay up last night for the first episode of Sons of Anarchy but midnight is too late for this gal to stay up on a work night.  DVR will be it from now on.  

Today’s prompt was to take the closest book to you, turn to page 51 and make the first sentence your first line.  The closest book to me was ‘The Best of American Poetry 1988-1997’.  I turned to page 51 and found myself in the middle of a poem called ‘Garbage’ by A.R. Ammons, the line:  in your end is my beginning.

Here’s what I wrote (in poem form, again):

Page 51

in your end is my beginning

the sway of your wide-spread panic
a catalyst to compose my courageous soul
a Heartslave no more to an artless saboteur
unobstructed by the confines of strict margins

in your end is my beginning

a grave and liberating righteousness
sweet shock of escaping a miserable condition
to proceed from nowhere is an unnamable light
to advance without apprehension is peace

in your end is my beginning
in my beginning you end

**

That’s what ten minutes gave me today and while writing that I got a flash as how to begin writing the last scene of my story.  Crazy how that happens.

Back to work.  Back to scribbling.

And, on this anniversary of 9/11, remember to remember.  Remember to love and be peaceful.   Remember to be gracious and kind.  Remember those gone too soon and those left behind to mourn.

In propinquity,

Nic

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Proceed With Dignity


Proceed With Dignity

all afternoon I think about it
how we were never meant to survive
we could kiss on the lips in the driveway
you drawing me closer by the silk blue scarf
you gave that is draped around my craned neck

“I like this man,” I thought, “so handsome and deliberate and curious.”

all afternoon I think about it
how when someone you want no longer needs you
how you dare to stubbornly demand a series of encores
vetoed by the difficult and silent remarks of your prey
the true Hunter who once required you ruthlessly for sport

“I love this man,” I thought, “a man fond of divorcing my poems and holding the world together with beautiful lies.”

all afternoon I think about it
how to proceed with dignity

**

It's Sam Roberts day!  The sun is shining and I'm preparing for a fantastic night out with Erica that will include a good meal, some laughs and conversation, spying on cute boys and some live music.  I was woken up this morning by some dummy who thought it was courteous to mow his lawn at 8am on a Saturday.  I do miss having a small forest of trees behind my house instead of a new and very close housing development.  It's a good thing that I'm easy going.  I got over it quickly and lounged in my bed re-watching S2 of Smash and daydreaming.

Today's poem is courtesy of a writing prompt I did a little while ago.  I was supposed to write a scene in a driveway that involved a blue scarf.  Mine came in the form of a poem.  And yes, as I typed it up, I did tweak it but just to firm it up.

Happy weekend, everyone!  I hope that you are spending your time with your favorite people and your hearts are happy.

In propinquity,
Nic

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Take It On Faith

I decided after a glorious weekend away to give myself the week off from writing.  I started the prompts and then swiftly abandoned them in exchange for down time in Hubbards.  I did intend to write my last prompt on Saturday but I just didn’t get around to it.  I was too busy enjoying this:



My friends and I had a stunning weekend.  We had a scrumptious lobster dinner at the Shore Club, lounged at our Inn on the patio with a breath-taking view of Hubbards Cove drinking wine, laughing, talking and marveled at sun set.  Before long it was time to hike around the corner, back to the Shore Club and cue up for the Matt Mays show.  I have had the good fortune of seeing him play several times but this particular show was, by far, the most outstanding, the most fun.  I attribute it mostly my companions and to the venue because I always have fun there, it’s impossible not to.  The show itself was a hell-on-wheels rock ‘n’ roll show’.  Young River warmed up the stage and got the crowd primed and are quite good all on their own.  As soon as they were finished we took a few large steps and ended up right in the front for Matt Mays.  While it is true that I the next morning my ears were still ringing from being so close to the front monitors, I was ridiculously stuffed up dangerously close to black lung from the smoke machine but my heart was happy.  There is something heartening about Matt’s music, something that sounds like … well … home.  It feels like home to me and offers the sense that I am right where I belong.  Plus, you can belt the tunes out good and loud in a live setting, even if the long skinny fringes of the singer’s swanky black jacket are poking out your eyes and he’s standing on your purse as he sings into the crowd on the mere edge of the gear box the monitors were resting on.  Needless to say, we left the venue happy and sweaty and elated.  Arriving back to work Monday morning was a slap in the face because I was still slightly jubilant from the weekend away.  It was hard to re-adjust to reality after the overwhelming sense of peacefulness I felt in Hubbards, because I was with warm-hearted humans, because I was breathing easy, because I was in a drama-free zone and I was content.  Best weekend getaway in recent memory.  It was much needed and deeply appreciated by all involved.

On Thursday night is also worth mentioning a small delight.  I was sitting at The Carleton having a drink with my friend Heather.  I was seated at the end of the bar by the entrance and a group of people caught my attention when they entered.  I after doing what I’m sure was a tripe take, he shot me a smile.  I looked at Heather and said, “Is that Charlie Sexton!?”  She shrugged at me and sipped her beer but I was determined to find out.  It turns out it was.  I flexed up my the gonads to cart myself over and say hello.  The singer of 80’s hits like ‘Beats So Lonely’ and ‘Impressed’ towered over me, still sporting those perfect cheekbones, he was quite delighted I knew who he was.   I stood and conversed with him for a few minutes, why he was in Halifax, what he’s been up to and a little about the Arc Angels project he did that I love, he has warm hands and a kind disposition.  What a neat thing to have happened.  Completely random and quite cool. 

So this self-imposed writing hiatus is a little bit painful but my days are long this week and by the time I get home my brain is mush and I don’t really have a spare minute to create anything.  I do scribble, words, thoughts, ideas, and names but it isn’t the same.  I look forward to Friday being over and having five whole days off to relax and open my mind back up to all things creative.  I’m itching to finish ‘Large-Hearted’, so that’s a goal.  Fingers crossed.

I’ll take it on faith.

In propinquity,

Nic

Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Ring


The Ring

I lost myself somewhere in the darkness.  Just for a second.  I like to think of it as a little hiccup in my autobiography, nothing shocking, nothing out of the ordinary, and nothing to be ashamed of.  It happens to everyone; sadness will creep in, tarnish your smile and truncate your happiness.  It is temporary, like a writer falling to writer’s block.  It is an interval for them to replenish the well of inspiration, the same kind of idea for me, but someone ordinary with an aversion to activity and proclivity for uninterrupted introversion, a time-out, a mere moment to make room for more joy.  I am inching closer to contentment every day, moving further into the light; just a blip, a wrong turn, a minor setback.  I am on my way.

It is a beautiful day outside in my miniature courtyard retreat.  I like the sense of seclusion so close to the city scape.  The hum of morning traffic just beyond my backyard fence and the shade of tall willowed trees, I feel safe but not alone.  This morning I coil up in my weepy lounge chair with a cup of vanilla oolong tea and take in the tranquil trickle and colours of my koi pond, I take refuge in their hues; midnight blacks, bright reds, creamy yellows, electric blues.  I place a little food in my hand and slowly lower it down into the water to watch them swim to nourish themselves right from my palm.  When I draw my hand out I am aware of the ring on my finger.  I still haven’t taken it off. 


The ring, a gold wire wrap design adorned with a single Swarovski pearl is all I have left to remind me.  The ring, a glimmer of hope, of possibility, a line to the past, where my heart is, where my grace resides.

**

This is all I could muster after ten minutes on the prompt.  Today's was to write a scene that uses the following words: wire, pond, truncate.  That's why you'll see each of them intalicized.  I wasn't going for quantity, I was aiming for quality. I hope there's a bit of quality to ten minutes of scribbling.  It's short but sweet.  Maybe like me?

It's my Friday!  Yay!  I'm hitting the big city tonight to visit with my pal Heather and then hope to enjoy a rainy day off tomorrow being leisurely with pens, paper, books, the remote and preparing for my night away in Hubbards.  Two more sleeps!

Happy Thursday!

In propinquity,
Nic

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Happy Accident



Happy Accident

Serendipity.  It was the first word; I swear on my wee little life, the first word I saw when I opened the dictionary.  Today’s writing prompt: write a story that starts with a word you pick out of the dictionary at random.  What are the odds that my eyes would fall arbitrarily on a word defined as the faculty or phenomenon of finding valuable or agreeable things not sought for?  It was pleasant surprise, very serendipitous in fact.  The universe somehow magically manages to connect the dots with happy accidents, like me finding such a fortunately ironic word for a writing prompt exercise, like Isaac Newton’s famed apple dropping from a tree that led him to his musings about the nature of gravitation or like my friend Nan reluctantly attending a wedding reception only to meet the love of her life.  She snuck into the tent out in the middle of a field in New Ross and quietly sat herself at the most inconspicuous table in the back.  She hated her friend’s bride with the fire of a thousand suns but couldn’t bring herself to actually miss what would most likely be the most important day of his life.  While she dressed herself in a simple summer dress and sling back shoes she reminded herself that it is more important to support your loved ones and not judge.  As long as Jack was happy, who was she to disagree.

Under the big top and twinkly lights Nan sat with her legs crossed sipping champagne with a strawberry bobbing at the bottom of the flute  listening to the wedding band play a pleasant version of ‘Stand by Me’.  A voice spoke close to her ear, in a husky masculine tone, “Friend of the bride or the groom?”

Nan stifled a gasp from the chill the mystery man sent down her bare spine.  She cleared her throat and slowly turned to meet her table companion, “The groom.  You?”

He flashed a smile that near blinded her, “Blushing bride.”

Nan’s reply flew nervously out through her lips, “Sorry to hear that.”

Playful laughter erupted from her table’s handsome and unwelcome guest, “Tell me how you really feel?”  He extended his hand and introduced himself, “Carson Morrow, pleasure.”

She took his hand and watched while he placed a soft kiss on the top of her fingers, “Nan Forbes, likewise.”

He stood, straightening out his disheveled tie and looked down to her, “Care to dance, pretty girl?”

It took her a long time to answer because in that one moment staring up at him, she fell in head over heels in love, claiming his eyes destroyed her, “I’d love to.”

And they danced; all night, all the way into the next day and the next.  Serendipity in action. 

I guess my writing prompt isn’t so much a story as it is the account of Nan’s new flourishing romance.  I am so pleased for her, such happenstance to have found Carson on a night when she was certain would be miserable.   Much the same as it was some kind of karmic fate I settled my eyes on serendipity when I sat down to write today.

**

I missed yesterday’s writing prompt because I wasn’t feeling well.  I crashed after work with a raging headache and so I didn’t get anything down.  If time permits today, there may be a double dose of Teapot but if not I won’t beat myself up too much.  Today’s was light and fortunate.  Landing that word is exactly its definition.  Too cool.

Tomorrow is my Friday which I’m happy about.  I look forward to a three day weekend and am happy that it’s finally Hubbards weekend!  I plan to have coffee and chatter with my pal Heather tomorrow after work and I may even get a card tag to Ru out seeing as I got one from her yesterday with a hilarious quote on the cover.  I also received a lovely card from Erica too that meant a lot to me, it feels good to be loved.

I’ve had my soup and soon it’ll be time for green tea and my pear.  Three more hours of this work day and I can go enjoy the sun. Yippee!

I wish you happy accidents all day long.

In propinquity,
Nic


Monday, August 19, 2013

Smells Like Teen Spirit


Today's writing prompt:  write a scene that involves the scent of a teenager.  You decide what that means. Here's what came:

Smells Like Teen Spirit

I almost forget what it’s like to be a teenager.  Gone are the days of 16 Magazine, Friday Night Videos, acne, slouch socks to shield my thick ankles, baggy shirts to disguise my quickly changing body and Jovan Musk permanently embedded in my skin to hide profuse sweating.  I was a tidy kid, respectful, didn’t talk back to my parents for fear of a back-hander and I did well in school and was proud of it, quick to rub my friend’s noses in it because when you’re a kid, everything is a competition, right? 

I am reminded of these things when I enter my 13 year old niece’s bedroom.   If I could take you back in time to my teenage bedroom, you’d see my bed centered in my room, brass headboard, girly linens, a million tear-stained pillows to throw my dramatic face in when things didn’t go my way, walls papered with posters of 80s icons, Duran Duran, Culture Club, Michael Jackson, Madonna, INXS and everything in its right place.  The deal was I wasn’t allowed to hang my posters unless my room kept clean at all times and I kept my grades up.

Entering Holly’s room is a literally an enter at your own risk situation.  When I think of younger teenage girls, I imagine soft and vibrant contrasting pink hues, fuzzy stuffed things, pretty jewelry, fashionable clothes, perfume, and diaries with little skimpy locks, palates of cheap make-up, maybe One Direction and Pretty Little Liar posters.  It’s fair to say that Holly’s room is a science experiment.  Opening the door was an immediate struggle.  A mountain of wet bath towels hindered my entrance into the hazy dim lit room, “Holls, are you in here?”

“Over here,” she says shooting her hand up from behind a stack of school books and other junk that is supposed to be her desk, the one I passed down to her from my trendy teenage boudoir, “doing my math homework before soccer practice.  Are you gonna come?” 

I am aghast at the smell that stings my eyes and offends my nose.  What the hell is that smell?

“Of course I am.  Finish up your homework, dinner is almost ready and then I’ll drive you to over to the field.”

I couldn’t risk being exposed too much longer; the odor would have ruined my appetite.    I take my seat back at the kitchen table where my sister Lara is preparing dinner, “What is that pungent odor in Holly’s room!?

She half laughs and then scowls, “Let’s see, probably a combination of dirty dishes, half eaten things, soccer cleats, wet towels, the dollar store rip off of Davidoff’s Cool Water perfume and a month’s worth of filth, sweat and farts.”

“I don’t understand.  You leave her room like that!?”

“You know, my daughter is a lovely girl.  She’s bright and focused on her school work and on the soccer field, she’s sensitive and for the most part she’s responsible but the truth is she’s a slob.  And, she’s thirteen now, I refuse to pick up after her.  If she wants to live like a miscreant so be it. ”

“It smells like something died in there.  I almost fell over.  I couldn’t believe the mess in there, the piles of stuff.  There’s no floor!”

“I am constantly on her to clean her room telling her that if her father or I go in there fishing dirty plates out from underneath her bed or find creepy crawly things under a damp bath towel, she’s in trouble.  She’s soon due for another major cleaning spree, I know, it’s disgusting.”

“I am almost positive Jabba the Hut lives in there with her.  I am just flabbergasted.  I’d expect it from a teenage boy, but Holly!?”

Lara placed a crisp colourful salad in the middle of the dinner table and poured me a glass of wine.  “Teenagers are soooo much fun.”

I took a gulp, “A barrel of monkeys apparently.”

“Smells like one too!” 

**

Oh, to be young again.

Happy Monday!

In propinquity,
Nic

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Written Sideways



Today's prompt as I mentioned didn't really have a subject, its only rule was to turn your paper sideways and write, ignoring the lines if there were any.  Funny because I do this all the time or I fold a piece of blank paper in half and write on all of the folds.  Since I could write whatever I wanted, I started a poem and came up with this:

Written Sideways

the Sunday New York Times and crossword puzzles
your Ramones t-shirt, the toll of the mission bells
and a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios with skim milk

modern love

the crazy amount of time we wasted laughing too hard
the countless hours of drawing big dreams in the sand

modern love making

a stack of old issues of Rolling Stone magazines
a plate of vegetables cheese fresh bread and red wine

modern love taking its time

after countless afternoons of conversations with myself
my mind entertains wisdom my body doesn’t understand

modern love making it’s move

gazing thoughtfully down on us who have never known

true love

written sideways

I turn to you

**


I am officially, certifiably spent.  I had a great weekend in the gorgeous weather.  I spent Friday evening with Colleen watching Jurassic Park on the Halifax waterfront and yesterday road tripped to my big brother's house for his annual gathering.  I had a really good time this year (constant headache notwithstanding) because a big chunk of my family came.  There were shenanigans, fireworks, a bonfire, guitars and singing and gut-busting laughter.  It was fantastic and I was also told I'm going to be a great auntie again!  My nephew Cory and his finance Katie are expecting.  Always lovely to hear of new life bound for this earth.  Another little one to snuggle and spoil.  I'm happy for them and my brother is ecstatic about being a grandfather.  So nice for he and my sister 'n' law.  God news is good news is good news.  Babies rule.

Two writing prompts and zero story work this weekend.  I am disgraceful.  This week, I WILL work.

Dexter then sleep.  

Goodnight, moon.

In propinquity,
Nic




Arena


I am day behind on my writing prompts because yesterday I attended an annual family function which required road tripping.  I scribbled a tiny bit but I am giving myself permission right now for a do-over. I found it hard to write on the move, distracted by the gorgeous scenery en route to New Glasgow, NS, the radio and car conversation.  I'm a little tired and headachy so this isn't my best effort, it's loose and sloppy but I wrote something down and that's all that matters.

The prompt was for the scene to take place in an arena, here's what came:

Arena

I have traveled through some of the most miserable parts of the world to be here tonight in this arena.  Our last show of a long grueling world tour, I can finally retire the vanity required to climb into the spotlight and deliver what the masses pay good hard-earned money to see; antics, blood, and in turn they leave the echo of adoration.

The crew is dismantling our set.  The rest of the band has gone back to the bus but I sometimes like to take a seat and watch them work.   They converge like a beautiful, well-oiled machine, flawless and coordinated.  Observing their concise movement akin to a covert military maneuver.  I am awash with gratitude.  It’s gripping to watch them pull apart what they had only just built for me so that I can work for a few small hours.  I am indebted to these busy bodies for erecting my office, for having my back, for making me look good, for creating the largest part of an audience’s experience, for thinking on their feet.  For example, we pulled into this one town in Europe expecting to present a full frontal rock show and the venue was an old church.  Amidst all of the confusion, they quickly scaled the set back and turned God’s former house into a stunning Heaven for a thousand fans.  No easy feat but they did it.  For us.  They remind me to stay humble.  They are that good. 

I am watching them in awe and Gaz Dale, our tour manager approaches, “Great show tonight, Boss.  I thought you might be hungry so I had someone run out and grab you an onion bagel with vegetable cream cheese,” he hands me the brown bag and looks down on the crew from the top row of the lower bowl,  “You good?”

“Oh yeah, I’m just transfixed watching the guys tear down.  I just love them.  Know what’s amazing to me, Gaz?”

“What’s that, Boss?”

“This very arena, so many of the greatest bands in the world have played here, Pearl Jam, Bruce Springsteen, Rolling Stones, Neil Young, Motorhead, even the Doors in their day.  It’s mind-blowing to know that this space has been used over and over again, filled with energy, ear-splitting noise, the raw hum of an excited crowd and people who work tirelessly to create something larger than life.  Like these guys.”

“And the beat goes on.  So uh, you ready to rock ‘n’ roll?”

Gaz is anxious to hit the after party because he answers me in song lyrics, that’s what he does.  “You go on ahead.  I’m going to sit here for a little while longer, eat my bagel and hang with the crew.”

“Boss, there are a lot of people waiting for you to celebrate.”

“They can wait.  Right now, I am celebrating them.”  I nod to the crew and bite my bagel.

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That's all she wrote.  Now, I will work on today's prompt.  Not sure now much steam I have left but I'll give it a whirl.  Isn't really a prompt.  She says to turn your paper sideways and write, even with lines.  I can write anything I want.  Let's see how it goes.

In propinquity,
Nic


Friday, August 16, 2013

Late To The Party



Today’s prompt (which took me more like 20-25 minutes to write instead of 10 because I was writing as I worked) is to write a scene using an unreliable narrator and give her a cat.

This is what came:

Late To The Party

I promised I would go but I lied.  Well, I didn’t lie per se, I did plan to go but when the time came to embark on the journey to the undesired destination, I flaked. The best decision was to stay home in my sweats, listen to music and scroll through hundreds of delicious recipes on Pinterest that I want to try but will never make.  As you can clearly see, I am quick to make promises I can’t keep.  I admit, I have no follow through. 

I was supposed to be there by 7:30pm.  It is now 8:23pm.  My phone is set on vibrate and is lighting up like a Christmas tree;  texts, voicemails, Facebook messages, tweets, all boasting the same query, “Where ARE you!?”  I delete each notification as I skim without really reading.  Then voice mail. 

Margaret was first, “Nellie Briggs!  How dare you desert your …”

Delete.

Then there was Carol, “I keep telling myself that you’re probably just running late.  Having a wardrobe malfunction or are stuck in traffic.   You better …”

Delete.

And Janine spat out a sour tone, “I can’t believe you aren’t here.  How selfish …”

Delete.

And of course Dawn, my best friend in the whole entire world, “Congratulations Nell, you win.  Never will I ever do a single thing for you again, ever!  You exhaust me and I’m really disappointed this time more than all the other times that you promised you’d show and up and didn’t.  You are a terrible friend, Nellie.  Oh, happy birthday.  The party I threw for you was lovely.”

Replay message.

Delete.

Dawn.  We have been through every major life event together, college, botched life plans, illness, silliness, sadness, celebration, bad boyfriends, bad hair and broken hearts.  Her cat is the almost twin sister to my Marbles, a lazy blue eye-d Ragdoll kitty with a silky color-point coat.  Even she is looking at me with disappointment. 

If these people were my friends they would accept me for who I am.  They should know I have loner tendencies and that I prefer solitude to crowded places and that I like to observe instead of being the center of attention.  I am not adventurous or spontaneous, I work my guts out all day and I just like to relax and take it easy.  How is that wrong?!  I know I can be insensitive to the hardships and demands of others but I live my life for me and do what I want and if I don’t want to do something that’s my choice and no one else’s so they can suck lemons.  Plus, how many other people accept a Facebook invite and say they are going to some stupid Scentsy party or a baby shower and don’t actually go?  Millions.  I’m not the only flake.

Yeah, saying that out-loud does make me sound like an asshole, doesn’t it?

Oh well.  C’est la vie. 

**

TGIF!  I just made plans with my friend Colleen tonight and am contemplating a family gathering tomorrow that is a road trip away.  Feeling a little blue, left over from yesterday and I'm really behind in my sleep but I'm happy the weekend is upon us and next week is a four day week for me leading up to my overnight away in Hubbard to see Matt Mays with friends.  Mmm lobster dinnnner.

I wish you peaceful easy feelings and lots of laughs with those you love.

In propinquity,
Nic



Thursday, August 15, 2013

Raggedy Paperback


I signed up to receive writing prompts in my email daily.  The purpose of the exercise is to accept the prompt and spend ten solid minutes, preferably by hand, on the subject.  I received my first challenge today, an effort on my part to keep sharp and to think on my toes.  These exercises are designed to be short bursts of joy, of straight writing, without editing, without research, without hesitation.

My first one was to write about a raggedy paperback, with the narrator starting outside.  I kept her outside for the duration.  I wrote this off the cuff and I confess while feeling a slight shade of blue so it's a little bit sad.  I didn't really write too much about the paperback, it was more symbolic of the situation but this is what flashed when I started to scribble.  

Double teapot action today!  It's the write way, yes?


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Raggedy Paperback

I am quiet.  It is peaceful sitting here with him on the park bench where we first met, not speaking,   With only a few solitary souls roaming the Public Gardens, the occasional squawk of a duck and rush hour traffic slowing down on Spring Garden Road, we rest there together but alone.  I contemplate a whole glossary of goodbyes before he tentatively clears his throat and utters the first fretted words, “I’m sorry, I just don’t love you the way you love me.”

A rebellious gaggle of teenage boys without helmets whiz by on BMX bikes, the speed disrupts the powdery path, dust slowly rises up into the sliver of sunlight left around our shaded perch.  I am quick to shut my eyes during his admission to prevent tears from coming and ask him, “Do you think it’s true?” 

“Is what true?”

“That someone in Heaven listens to you when you pray, like that story in the raggedy paperback you gave me the night we met on this bench.”

He replied, unable to face the unpleasantness of the moment, “How should I know, I don’t even believe in God.” 

“I don’t mean to intentionally override the measure of this break-up with irrelevant questions it’s just that I don’t understand, you were so tender and urgent when you pressed the book into my hand.  You turned me into a courageous person; you smoothed my hair away from my face and told me I was beautiful.  Do you remember?”

He shook his head, “I don’t remember anything.”

“You lie.”

“I’m out of here,” he yanks himself up off of the bench, hikes his collar up around his face and stuffs his hands in his coat pockets, “I’m sorry, I tried.  It’s been fun.”

I watch him walk away from me, the howl of sirens race along South Park Street, an ambulance, en route to the nearby hospital district, I pray they are coming for me because my heart has stopped beating.  Yesterday we were laughing like fools, today divided like a war torn region.  My bag at my feet spills out on the grass when reach to pick it up.  There it is, the raggedy paperback, its well-thumbed pages, notated margins and underlined passages.  My sadness drops me into a memory, us leaning amorously into each other across the table at Paper Chase CafĂ©, I’m mooning over the book’s cover that he has held up and away from his face while he reads aloud to me the sweet story steeped in love.


I once was loved.  Now I am lost.  A weathered paperback novel, a history book of sorts, and the scars, the only mementoes that remain.  Either, happy endings.

**

I look forward to my next prompt.  If you feel inspired, take a crack at the raggedy paperback too.

In propinquity,
Nic