Showing posts with label The Carleton. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Carleton. Show all posts

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Red Wine Weather



It’s Easter. Another first without my Dad.  It is cold out today but the sun is shining and after a really fun night out with my buds at The Carleton, I woke up lucid and refreshed, ready for coffee and some writing. I am longing for my family today though. I suppose that is a direct reaction of it being the first Easter without Dad. I wish we were together somewhere eating dinner and spending time. I can’t even recall the last time we were all in the same place for a happy occasion. Makes me sad but I know wherever they all are today, they are happy and doing what they want to be doing. I wish that for each of them. Always.

So, the writing: I brewed myself a fragrant cup of Joe, set my playlist, donned my headphones and went to it. Somewhere on the interwebs, I once heard Joel Plaskett say something about ‘red wine weather’. I promptly wrote it down in my notebook because the bones of a poem immediately appeared in my noodle. Today’s mission was to organize those thoughts. I love how a phrase can inspire a piece of work, whether it is a poem or a song or a feature film. Inspiration can crop up at any time. Grateful to JP for uttering .. er .. typing the words.

The poem, ‘Red Wine Weather’ is an ode to some of my favorite things: wine, art, experience, longing and indifference.  Sarcasm intended.


Check it:

Red Wine Weather

I lay here beside you
beside myself in reminiscence
this red wine weather has me
exercising my right to sullen art
on spindrift wages of ambition
                     
I lay here beside you                  
beside myself in rumination
sipping a ruby red merlot reciting the
calmness of your sleeping expression
overwhelmed by the crimson bouquet

the complex layers of plump bing cherries
fragrant baked plums pressed into hints of mocha
it is delicate, almost luxurious in texture and truth
its staying power pursed in long raspberry
and cocoa powder finish            

I lay here beside you
beside myself in trepidation
this red wine weather has me
staying still despite my artfulness
heavy and gold in its bountiful harvest

sipping sipping and then you sigh

**

However and with whomever you spend your day with, be kind and grateful.

Happy Easter, friends. And, a happy Easter to you Dad. Give my love to the stars.

In propinquity,
Nic

Friday, January 2, 2015

All My Fears Are Trivial



I don’t believe in resolutions. Well, not anymore. Resolutions, eat better, exercise more often, be kinder, be better … blah blah blah. I believe in intentions.  And not just on January 1st but 365 days of the year. Life shouldn’t be about the annual clean slate but rather the on-going mission for growth and goodness. But, that’s just me.

For me right now, there are a few areas that require a little extra work on my part but that has little to do with a new year dawning but from circumstance. Isn’t that usually the case? I have meditated on it over the Christmas break and realize my problem areas and am now striving to improve upon them, which includes but is not limited to strengthening the fortress around my heart to prevent impurities in and firming my small but mighty circle of friends. Time to purge the toxins, metaphor intended.

The one exception to the resolution rule this year is I started a gratitude jar. Nothing fancy but today I dropped my first slip of paper inside. I vow to add to it, even on the difficult days, one little thing that brought joy to my hours. I will do this until December 31st and then hunker down with a celebratory beverage and read them all. 2104 was a difficult one so this is my attempt to remember the good stuff if things go south. It’s Amorian, it’s good for me. I challenge you to do the same. It’s a negativity net if you will. I’ve reached my threshold and my ability to cope with drama and folks who don’t deserve a chapter in my ongoing saga. Simplify, simplify, simplify. Just happens to coincide with a new year but if the need had come in June … same tactic would apply.

2014 had magical moments. Singing on the top of my lungs under the most incredible moon I’ve ever seen with The Killers and my people in PEI, Gord Downie squeezing my hand, watching people I love and/or admire succeed and flourish, beautiful reunions, getting my tattoo, meaningful conversations with my Dad, card tag, good deeds, daydreams, Hubbards in summer, nights at The Carleton, seeing my dearest friends smile and laugh, my Mom’s 80th birthday, the amazing rock shows and ringing ears, all of the poems and notes and stories I wrote/tried/wanted to write.

I have struggled for a really long time, trying to tap back into my creativity. I was nowhere near as prolific in 2014 as I should have been. I’m sad that I let life and hard lessons get in the way of the words that wanted to be written. I am working my way back to that self. I know, I sound like a broken record but the long cold winter us upon us and I have to pick up my heart, dust it off and put it to good use. I have to turn off the TV and turn on the poetry. I need to make an Open Heart Forgery reading. I need to dig back in, visit the new library that opened in Halifax and have more artist dates that include writing, research and results.

So, here’s to you all making your fresh start, wiping the slate clean, I’m here with you, listing my ongoing intentions, rooting for you, hoping the best for you and smiling when you succeed.  And even if you don’t, when a door closes a window opens. It’ll be okay. Chin up, open heart, and try try again. If we are always doing our best, we can never truly fail.

In propinquity,
Nic

Sunday, September 7, 2014

This is the Song to Calm the Crazy Master of Your Heart


I maintain that music sustains me, it is my form of prayer, how I measure time and place, music is oxygen, music is life and love and longevity.  It inspires me to write, rocks my core, brings me to tears and raises me up to religious heights.  For someone who can’t play an instrument and his highly uncoordinated, I am a slave to every note, every pulsing beat, taking each waltz to the edge of everywhere; music is everything.  Music solves the sunset, muses the moonlight.  It’s hard to not wax poetic about the most beautiful and unifying language on the planet.

I have attended a plethora of shows this year, discovered new and exciting artists and value each experience for the energy and stimulus I garnered. 

Here’s a loose list of many of 2014’s musical highlights:

Matt Mays – NYE @ Casino NS w/ Carmen Townsend, Big Red Festival in PEI and at The Shore Club in Hubbards, NS.

Blue Rodeo - Halifax Metro Center

Adam Baldwin CD release party with Sam Cash & The Romantic Dogs - Seahorse Tavern

Wintersleep/USS/The Trews  – The Marquee

Matt Epp – The Carleton

Royal Wood – St Matthew’s Church

City and Colour – Halifax Metro Center

The Stanfields (acoustic) – The Carleton

July Talk – Alderney Landing for Canada Day, Big Red Festival in PEI

Sam Roberts – Alderney Landing for Canada Day

Ben Caplan, Alderney Landing for Canada Day

Drive By Truckers – Big Red Festival in PEI

Platinum Blonde – Casino NS

Brian Byrne – The Carleton

Gloryhound CD release w/ The Motorleague – Seahorse Tavern

Dave Marsh & True Love Rules, The Navy Brats – Jacob’s Lounge & The Carleton for HUFF

The Killers – Big Red Festival in PEI

Nashville Pussy w/ Fifth on the Floor – Seahorse Tavern

Dropkick Murphys – Cunard Center

Ashley MacIsaac – The Carleton

Dylan Guthro & Mo Kenney – Casino NS

Dwight Twilley (soundcheck) – The Carleton for HUFF w/ an honourable mentionable hug from Garland Jeffreys

Adam Cohen – The Carleton

My list is missing bits and bobs I am sure, things like remarkable Saturday nights at The Carleton with The Carletones etc etc but what I really want to discuss is the last entry on my list, Adam Cohen.

For those of you born under a rock, Adam Cohen is the song of Leonard Cohen but stands beautifully on his own two feet as a singer/songwriter/performer.  While he acutely resembles his father and has the same awe-inspiring voice, his songs are all his own.  It’s true, there is homage present to the music he was born into but there is a definite tone of originality and songs that express what he so deeply wishes to share with his audience.

I’m not sure I have attended a show at The Carleton with such palpable energy, a loving energy that boasted a sheer veil of faith and hope, creativity and grace.  Adam took the stage with his outstanding band and straight out of the gate, just from the ambiance of humanity circulating through the room, from person to person, a tiny and constant tear streamed from my left eye.  I tried very hard to stop it but an overwhelming wash of emotion was too powerful to defeat. 


His stories of his family and his father, his sweet sense of humour and his songs made for a beautiful evening.  He speaks like a poet, performs like a rock star and accepts his accolades with a humble heart.  When he played a new song from his new record called ‘Love Is’ he had the whole bar singing it with him and those as you know are moments I live for; harmony among humans, unity in one voice.  It fills me up and it pours out of my silly face.  He continued to overthrow my heart when he finished with Dad Cohen’s ‘So Long Marianne’.  If I was permitted and it wouldn’t made me look like a complete wiener I’d have let the tears come like Niagara Falls.  It was really hard to sing along without my eyes bursting and then my concert company would have clocked me for crying.  Thankfully her back was to me for the duration of the show.  I was singing ‘Now so long Marianne, it’s time that we began to laugh and cry and cry and laugh about it all again …’ but not at the top of my lungs like I wanted because it would have come out in sobs.  This is how I know that the time he shared with his last night will resonate for a long time to come.  After the encore I made a mad dash for a mascara check and to catch my breath.

I had the opportunity to shake his hand, compliment his artist and offer my gratitude for making my Saturday perfect.  He spoke very highly about his father’s command of the English language and his elegance.  I told Adam Cohen I loved the words he spoke about Leonard but they truly mirror back at him in his own right.  His handshake was firm and warm and appreciative.  It was an honour to look a Poet in the eye and speak about words and music and for it to have meaning.  It was a small but mighty exchange but I can’t tell you what it meant to me.

For me, Adam Cohen, who sold out every single seat for three nights straight, was the BEST show I’ve seen to date at The Carleton.  It runs dangerously close to every Matt Epp show I’ve seen there because his shows and music and artistic intention moves me in the very same way. 

I am compelled to spend today writing, musing, thinking creatively, counting blessings and filling my ears with beautiful music.

Music like this:



In propinquity,

Nic

Sunday, May 25, 2014

I'm So Glad

I had two opposing live music experiences this weekend.  Friday couldn’t have been any more different from Saturday if it tried.

I ended a long short work week at The Marquee Ballroom for The Trews Halifax episode of the CD release party.  It was a packed, sold out show and we found ourselves pressed against the front rail, inhaling large looming plumes from the smoke machine, inappropriate drunk chicks talking their valley girl speak and shoving and even pummelled by an accidental rogue drum stick.  We were situated next to the organist who played his cowbell with a fervent and strong clunk.  It slipped from his grip and flew forward, swishing through my hair and striking my bud in the head.  Ouch.


The Trews burned through a set-list of new songs off their new record and standards where the crowd often out-sang them.  Highlights include the gorgeous and emotional ‘Highway Of Heroes’, a rousing Sean Dalton drum solo and a sexually charged John Angus guitar solo that dropped a few jaws in the front row.  I was particularly amused by a young girl whose eyes looked like large surprised moon-pies and the kind of expression on her face that tells you she isn’t sure she’s supposed to be looking.  She was blushing.  Perhaps that means he did his job?

I wasn’t impressed all that much with the sound, I could barely hear the vocals and the organ was far too loud and overpowering but the performances were top shelf.  Could have had something to do with being up front except that we were in pretty much the same spot for Wintersleep and USS and the sound was excellent.

I stumbled home content, the chamber of my rock ‘n’ roll heart sated.  If anything, the show allowed me to rid my skin of all of my stress and frustrations that built up over the long short work week.  I crashed, slept like a log and woke up happy that Royal Wood was ahead of me.  Erica and I went across early from Dartmouth to find parking (George Thorogood was in town too and with multiple events taking place and the new construction downtown parking can be a challenge) and grabbed a bite to eat until the doors opened at 7:30pm.  When we reached the foot of Spring Garden Road and saw the people already lined up we were surprised.  I learned later that some folks arrived at 6pm in that cold frost warning weather just to get the best seats.  Because of the Long & McQuade contest I’d won, my tickets weren’t so much tickets so at will call I had to give my name and they just gave us our wristbands.  Erica disappeared into the bowels of the church for a pee break and I scoped out some seats.  By the time I got inside the best seats were taken but I would come to learn later that there really aren’t any bad seats to be had.  I found a decent spot on the left-hand side of the church and watched the rest of the venue slowly fill in. 

It was a completely different crowd from the night before.  The people at The Trews, even though it wasn’t a young crowd, were drunk and obnoxious and bothersome around me, ignoring the show that was happening in front of them while scrolling Facebook and such.  The people who congregated for this show were wonderful.  All friendly, kind and happy to engage in polite banter all of which I took a little something from.  That is a rare thing and I really appreciate that about a concert crowd when, especially given the venue and the occasion. 

Erica arrived to the pew I selected and Peter Katz took the stage minutes later.  A warm and thoughtful singer/songwriter and jovial in his storytelling.  He played solo but it quickly became an interactive set, inviting us to lend our voices to meld to his.  It’s one of those things for me that I find incredibly profound, how music bonds strangers in those minutes, how harmony becomes its own truest definition.  In these insightful moments I can feel my heart aching to burst inside my chest, burst with joyful noise.  It brings tears to my eyes.  Grateful tears.  The human spirit coming together with a choir of voices, nothing like it.  That’s one of the many super-powers of music, that universal language that is constantly mused about.

Peter relayed wonderful stories associated with his music, including one song he wrote about the woman he married.  It was also in his set that he brought the lovely Kim Harris up on stage to assist him.  The first little surprise of the evening.  The second was when he brought Royal Wood out to sing ‘Brothers’ with him.  I discovered a You-Tube video of it a week prior to the show and listened to it a lot and was delighted that they performed it together for us here in Halifax.  He finished his set with one last song after Royal exited the stage and was treated to a standing ovation.  That had to feel good, you could tell it did by the smile on his face.  And really, as I sat quietly waiting for Royal to take the stage, it occurred to me that Peter Katz and Royal Wood are perfectly paired on a bill together.  There is a delicate symbiosis, of spirit, intention and musical reverie.

This was my first show at St Matthew’s Church and that it was for Royal Wood was nothing short of perfection.  The acoustics are absolutely beautiful, the atmosphere spiritual and when he took the stage and started to sing and share stories the way he does, well, words fail me, to adequately describe the experience except to stay that it was exalting.  There are a handful of singers in this country I hold in high esteem.  Seeing Jim Cuddy for example, reaches down into the deepest depths of my being and culls emotions I didn’t even know I had.  I can now add Royal Wood to this list.  Soothing, effecting and soul-satisfying.  I am convinced that his voices sounds just as powerful and purposeful as it feels for him when the songs come to him when he is creating.  His genuine approach to his craft is honest and it translates live.  He believes in what he does, who he does it with and appreciates it.  In turn, his audience is grateful to feel like they are part of something important magical that is happening in the exact moment it is taking place.  I always look around at others when I am at a show to watch their reactions.  Unlike the night before, sweating to death among a throng of people whose beer was more important than what was happening in front of them, people were alert, receptive of the inspiration, the songs, the stories and most importantly, respectfully.  I didn’t see a soul in the times I glanced around, looking down at their smart phones or looking for the door.  They were looking forward, all eyes on the stage, all ears full, all hearts open.  That, pure enchantment.  He commanded the room with ease and with pride, humbly. 



One of my favorite parts was when we sang ‘Forever and Ever’ with him.  Again, that harmonious blend of hearts and voices.  Live shows, because of the unforgettable moments and the stories, change the way you listen to the records.  After live shows, when I go and fire up my iTunes and songs come on that were done in the show, I think fondly about the stories, the accompaniments, all things associated with what happened, to the song.  It adds extra character and meaning. 

Rose Cousins joined him for a few songs which drew an appreciative responsive from the crowd, she is beloved and has such a beautiful voice.  He also invited Samba Nova to join him on stage for a song.  The whole troupe.  He shared that during sound check he thought Paul Simon was in the basement of the church but it was in fact Samba Nova practicing in the basement.  What a great moment.  And, with the lights, I noticed that when he was without his guitar, just singing with a microphone in his hand, his tall lean form cast a stunning larger than life shadow on the white church walls.  It was jarring on first sight but added to the excellence and ambience of the evening.

Of course when he was finished the house rose for a standing ovation and he returned to the stage alone with a ukulele.  Her name was Betsy and he told us the story about wandering into a little shop in Ireland to buy it and of course in as one would expect, he wrote a story about buying the instrument.  He invited Peter Katz out and together they stepped away from the microphones and emoted a sweet song called ‘Irish Road’ while Royal affectionately plucked Betsy.  Easily, the premiere moment of the night for me.  He invited the band out for one last song before greeting everyone as they exited the church to say thank you.

I had the opportunity to shake his hand, thank him for a great show and gab a second.  I urge you, if you are not acquainted with his music to do so.  Canada is brimming with incredible artists, after shows like these, I am often full of Canadian pride.  To be able to participate and be a small part of the extraordinary fabric our culture is made of is a gift and it is important to our humanness.

We finished off our night with libations at The Carleton.  There's really no other way to cap off a good concert experience.

It was a busy weekend but it was good.  Inspiring.  Much needed, deeply appreciated and will never be forgotten.

In propinquity,

Nic

This is one of the songs Peter Katz did.  He shared this story in Halifax and it touched me.  I went on to listen to Oliver Schroer.  Magnificent.

(My linky thing isn't working so you may need to copy and paste)



Sunday, February 9, 2014

If I Should Fall Behind


I have been unusually neglectful of The Paper Teapot of late.  My work life, private life and sleep deprivation are preventing me from being my best self, my creative self.  I even sat down the other night with a glass of wine and attempted to write a poem that has been nagging me since I was in the thick of the crowd at the Blue Rodeo concert (which was amazing!).  I tried working it out and ended up writing another new poem that reading it back now I see is absolute trash.  It seems I have lost my groove again.  Darn.  The timing couldn’t be worse with two characters waiting in the wings.  They aren’t talking to me I think because I am not fully present and am instead distracted by those pesky things called numbers and details and worry for a family member.  I haven’t been sleeping well but I do try keep busy and productive in other ways even though I’m not creating: reading, letter/postcard writing/concerts/artist dates.

I have some things to do today but later my goal is to reconstruct the sucky poem to make it something worth posting.  I was successful in acquiring some new stationary that is fun and I can’t wait to use it all up so there’s an excuse to go buy more.  I found Duly Noted again after they moved from Quinpool Road downtown to Brenton Street.  That is a good thing!  I also bought a new pen and it was used on a giant pile of mail anxiously awaiting the mail man tomorrow.  It was a peaceful thing, amassing that pile, destined for a few special mailboxes.

Friday night I ended a rather long work week with an excellent triple bill of rock ‘n’ roll at the Seahorse Tavern:  The Navy Brats, Adam Baldwin Band and Gloryhound.  I was content to be in the underground, sweating out the week’s toxins with a gaggle of rock-heads.  My ears were happy to be full of noise other than ringing phones and my self-loathing while trying dearly not to make mistakes while learning new tasks.  The Navy Brats in particular were outstanding.  Organic, from the gut, honest rock fodder.  I loved them and will keep my eyes open for any future shows to attend.  I really loved watching Adam Baldwin whip the crowd into shape with his set.  I also loved looking around and watching faces in the crowd belting out the lyrics of his original material that can be found on his recently released ep.  And then there was Gloryhoud, back home after working on their new record on the west coast.  We are always happy to have them home to rock us and they never disappoint.  I fell into my bed content and filled up with the goodness that comes from a solid rock event.  Music is a good healer.

Oh and I almost forgot.  I ordered myself some fun business-like cards for writing last night.  My uber talented photographer friend Shelley Wyman (be sure to google her and peek at her work) posted on Facebook about her order and hers were stunning.  She designed her own but I opted for a design that was available on the site for my first try and will work on something else for the next time.  I ordered a pack of 50 with a few different designs.  They contain my contact info and blog website.  You know they do come in handy when you meet someone who is also an artist.  It happened to me one night when I was at The Carleton.  I got talking to someone at the bar and either of us had anything appropriate to swap and instead wrote website addresses on bar napkins.  This will rectify that issue.  I thought about it then, making business-like cards and Shelley’s post kicked my arse to get ‘er done.  Now I wait patiently for my order to arrive in the mail.  Pleased as punch and look forward to seeing them.

I have blogs to catch up on, a poem to fix and a new story to write plus a handwritten review for Ruthie since she sent me a copy of her latest work.  I look forward to tucking in and offering my thoughts much like she did with Town & Country.  I felt so proud of my efforts on that story after reading her response.  I am happy the work resonated and I also love that my circle are seeing themselves in the women I wrote about.  They grew upward from the love, influence and impact my friends have on me.  Friends are electric and should be celebrated, the true friends that find their way to you.  They are the reason magic exists and that is worth putting into words.  Even if it is through the worlds and wisdoms of fictional characters. 

Coffee is gone, CD has long since ended.  Time for me to face this Sunday and make it matter.

In propinquity,

Nic

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

From the Desk of a Blocked Writer


Uh oh.

I had the best of intentions to write after work last night.  I wanted to write.  I arrived home, ate a quick meal of Sunday leftovers, curry and naan bread, threw on my jammies with fuzzy slippers and fired up the computer.  I plunked my notes and the pages of ‘Burden’ on my desk to continue on.  In all of that aspiration, I spent a full hour gazing at a blank screen, mocked by the slow blinking cursor.  Admittedly, ‘Burden’ is a slow moving train and I’m really still listening to the sisters for the crux of the story, of why they appointed me to tell it.  Certainly there is a purpose, as with every story, the characters want and/or need something.  

I am six pages into their lives.  It wavers back and forth between the present and the past to highlight the behaviours and believes of each woman.  I think.  I hope.  Honestly, I am having a bit of trouble tapping into Judy’s personality because at first she’s such an asshole for lack of a better word.  It’s hard for me to write her meanness, her lack of humanity and her coldness.  I accept the challenge of course and understand it comes from somewhere but I’m still waiting to hear.  As for Helen, she’s endured a lot growing up alongside Judy and so she’s coming from a completely different perspective.  I feel myself on her side and I need to straighten out and be objective and be fair to my characters.  Not favor one over the other and I feel like Helen is soaking up my empathy at a rapid pace and I’m saving my disdain for Judy. 

Maybe this is why I hit a brick wall last night.  I tried to work out the block, determining whether or not it was just because I was tired from a long haul at the day job, or if my desk is too cluttered, or maybe it’s just my noodle is messy.  Whatever it is that caused me to fall flat on my face, hindered my creativity for a whole night.  I worry it will spill into today too.  I’ve been writing steady for a long time and it was actually painful to be mute, to be without one single thought or flash or note scribbled.  I tried music and pacing, I tried reading my pages aloud, and nothing.  Finally I closed up shop, watched a bit of TV and allowed myself to breathe.  I glanced once more at the pages when I crawled in bed but I didn’t want to jinx myself, get a sudden burst of thoughts and disrupt the night’s sleep I desperately needed.  So, I tucked into Elspeth’s book, her self-published gem, ‘Sole’.  I am grateful to her vivid characters for making me forget my writer’s ache and entertaining me to the point that even when my eyes were heavy and close to sleep I was still squinting to read.

I don’t expect a lot to happen writing wise today but I think I’ll continue to fill the well and see what happens.  I have Zumba after work so perhaps the hip shaking exercise will loosen some of the resistance.  Tomorrow evening I am attending the book launch for ‘Fallsy Downsies’ by Stephanie Domet at The Carleton.  I finished it yesterday on my commute home.  I savored the pages to extend my time in the story because I loved it so much.  If you’re looking for a good read, buy the book and meet Lansing Meadows, follow his tour.  I am hoping the launch and reading will further inspire me and help me get back on track with ‘Burden’.  Right now, I feel like it’s a big old mess.  But, I’ve been here before and I’ve come out the other side in one piece, overcoming obstacles and achieving some sort of success in the name of finishing something. 

I hope my uh oh turns into a yee haw soon.

In propinquity,

Nic

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Steinbeck Redux

Just an extension of the fantastic Steinbeck quote I posted earlier.  This, a wee post as I am heading out of a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend full of friends, family, blessings and two turkey comas.  I'm back in full swing at my work desk and back to writing.  I meant to write this past weekend but I was busy socializing, eating and reading and resting.  I did scribble but I've gotten a page more into 'Burden' today so that's all that matters.  I'm attending a writer's 'meeting of the minds' tonight with my Open Heart Forgery friends and look forward to that. I'll be sure to get somewhere early enough to have a bite to eat and read more pages of Stephanie Domet's excellent new novel. I started reading it yesterday and I'm half way through.  I should slow down as to savor it but I need to be done for next week when I attend the book launch at The Carleton.

Today, new records by East Coast favorites The Stanfields AND Adam Baldwin are released.  It's a good day for music!

Things to look forward to this week:  Matthew Good Friday evening at the Rebecca Cohn and a pumpkin adventure on Saturday.

Back at 'er!

In propinquity,
Nic



Monday, September 23, 2013

Words Fallsy Downsies in 1982

Word On The Street was FANTASTIC!  What a gorgeous day I had wandering around the Halifax waterfront, mingling with gentle souls, drinking coffee, fondling and buying books, enjoying everything literary.  I also took in two dazzling author readings by Halifax’s Stephanie Domet and the infallible Jian Ghomeshi .


Stephanie Domet engaged us with an animated reading from her impressive and forthcoming novel “Fallsy Downsies”.  I am currently reading her first novel entitled “Homing” and I am deeply in love with her writing style and her storytelling skills.  She has a fresh, vibrant voice and I admire her passion for her craft.  I’ve been reading her work for years, when she wrote for The Coast and am enjoying her creative writing.  It is evident from her characters, her story structure and themes that she pays careful attention and applies a great deal of love to the pressure of her pen.  She will be launching “Fallsy Downsies” on October 23rd at 6:30pm at The Carleton, I look forward to buying a copy and having the chance to say hello.


Stephanie also had the pleasure of introducing Jian Ghomeshi who was this year’s headliner in the CBC More Than Words tent, set to read from his chart topping, recently released in trade paperback, creative non-fiction effort called “1982”.  I finished reading it on Friday so I would be primed for this engagement and it made his reading that much more compelling.

“1982” is a heartfelt account of an Iranian-Canadian teen, obsessed with Bowie, in love with an older girl, a music obsessed New Waver coming of age in the 1980s.  The universal themes of the book are noted as the triumphs of outsiders and a love for music.  What kid didn’t feel like they totally didn’t fit in in high school?  What kid didn’t fall in love with someone they thought was cool and perhaps out of their league?   I identified with some of the emotions and insecurities he shared but most of all I shared his passion for music.  In the book he talks about how when he was a kid, to go and buy music was such a labor of love.  These days, when you like a song, you can click a button and it is yours.  In the 80s, it was literally a pilgrimage.  He describes the long journeys to acquire a record and that story choked me up because I saw myself in it, climbing on a bus in Eastern Passage to make my way to Barrington Street to Sam The Record Man.  Entering the store was just like heaven, multiple floors worth.  If you wanted music then, you had no choice but to travel for it.  And believe me; you had to love what you were in pursuit for to make that trip.  Just like Jian and his pal, I would buy my record, get back on the bus, devour the liner notes and memorize every last inch of the artwork before I even got back to my stereo to listen.  When he talked about this portion of the book yesterday, I filled up again, with nostalgia, with gratitude that I was fortunate enough to live at a time when music was exciting and sacred and sad for the kids that came up after me who will never understand the impending joy of such a jaunt.


Jian Ghomeshi is described as polite and inclusive as an interviewer but the same can be said for his presenting style.  He spoke to an ardent audience yesterday, enjoying a harmonious exchange inspiring a great deal of laughter, introspection and an all-around feel-good atmosphere.  Jian is dedicated to his work, a proud Canadian and a humanist through and through.  He is also six times more beautiful in person than he is on TV.  He lifted hearts yesterday, tickled funny bones and made everyone’s day he came in contact with.  Not a bad day’s work, eh?  I absentmindedly left my copy of the book on my nightstand so I had him sign the back cover of my writing book instead, the book I bought for myself at the Leonard Cohen show.  I apologized for forgetting but thought since it was the year of encountering all of my favorite Canadians, it seemed fitting to have him sign something Cohen.  I also expressed to him the same as I did here, about how that passage of his book moved me to tears thinking about my former self.  It seemed to touch him but I am sure he hears that often and it must feel good to know he has put something into the world that isn’t only universal but emotionally monumental to like-minded people like me.

(You can see the top of my head!)

It was a perfect day.  I hated for it to end but the feeling of contentment and peace lingers. 

On the writing front, I’m knee deep into ‘Too Much To Contain’.  I took myself out for a bit of an artist date on Saturday and worked out some details and wrote them out later that night in my writing room complete with the music that I need to fuel the difficult range of emotions required.  That is still proving to be a challenge for me.  My heart tends to be too big and soft to conjure acts of violence on the page.  I am trying.
                             
I am back to the grind today, working for the man.  The weekend already feels like it is a million miles away but my heart is still full.  I love that feeling.

In propinquity,
Nic



Sunday, September 15, 2013

Hear My Heart Trumpet


Hear My Heart Trumpet

overlook pages of dis-assembled scribbles
erase literal interpretations of daily deeds

hear my heart trumpet

announcing a sequence of graceful commands
advising a pocketful of stunning photos to dance

hear my heat trumpet

for tiny miracles independent of my original story
for immaculate heavy-lidded choreographies splaying

hear my heart trumpet hear its discourse hear its song

hear my heart trumpet a steady poetic meter

a salute

prepared to pursue the path of reasonable compromise
with someone who is much less suitable to the cause

my heart trumpets

for change
for sameness
for shelter
for dancing
for dreaming

hear my heart trumpet

**


Joyful moments (since Thursday) in point form:

-       my book buying adventure on Thursday (I bought ‘1982’ by Jian Ghomesi, ‘Homing’ by Stephanie Domet and ‘Mr. Penumbra’s 24 Hour Bookstore’)
-       yummy dinner and edits at The Carleton and encountering my Grade 5 teacher, Mrs. MacKenzie
-       arriving home to a package waiting for me from my dear friend Elspeth and inside was her novel ‘Sole’ (on sale now at Amazon.com)
-       making a tattoo appointment to finally fix and complete the only ink I will ever have
-       curling up in a rain storm with blankets and pillows with movies and tea after a long Friday
-       seeing my dear friend try on her wedding dress for the first time
-       spending the whole day browsing for bridesmaid dresses with her
-       hanging out with my mom and talking to her
-       watching Eat Pray Love
-       sleeping in
-       enjoying a coffee and the sunshine with my best friend on the Halifax Commons
-       visiting my dear friend Sharon on her birthday
-       writing the enclosed poem while listening to the new Civil Wars record
-       new sheets fresh out of the dryer to rest in on a Sunday before a Monday
-       daydreaming
-       praying
-       counting blessings
-       text messages that make me laugh outloud

Happy Sunday.  Back to work tomorrow, one long week before Word On The Street.  And, I hope to have a good deal more written on ‘Too Much To Contain’ before then.  Fingers crossed.

In propinquity,
Nic



Sunday, September 8, 2013

Surf Sing Change

Brian Byrne, Sam Roberts, Matt Mays & Shaun Majumder
at Lawrencetown Beach as tweeted by Sonic Records

I attended an event last night, Surf Sing Change, at the Rebecca Cohn that may very well have been my favorite show of 2013.  It was a benefit put together by Byrne and his wife Tara, their OCD Collective in support of Nova Scotia Autism.  It was a two part event, during the day a surf camp was held at Lawrencetown Beach for autistic children and their families followed by a benefit concert in the evening featuring Brian Byrne, Sam Roberts, Matt Mays, the lovely Kim Harris and Shaun Majumder hosting.  They changed the format from having each artist take the stage solo to a songwriter's circle of sorts where they all sat together on stage taking turns singing down the line.  It created an intimate setting and grand all at once.  To be in a room full of fellow music lovers and supporters of a great cause with that calibre of talent playing together was a marvel.  So wonderful, for those not in attendance, you missed something really amazing.

Shaun Majumder is a funny funny man.  He came out first and engaged the crowd with a gut busting monologue taking warm jabs at Newfoundland(ers), Americans, our finance minster among other hilarities.  He was a fun-loving host who kept the pace of the evening light and on track.  But in truth, there may have been more talking, joking and widespread laughter than there were songs.  Nobody minded except maybe for a humble Sam Roberts who was on the receiving end of Shaun's comedy.  The stories shared, jokes told and songs sung were absolute perfection.

My motivation to go to this thing at all was to see Sam Roberts.  I have sadly missed every show he has played in Halifax and I LOVE Sam Roberts.  And, given the additional line-up, I didn't want to miss it because I knew it was going to be something special.  He played 'Hard Road' first which pleased me and on his second time around he pulled out 'Uprising Down Under' which just so happens to be my all-time Sam Roberts song.  I felt my whole body fill with goosebumps.  It was an incredible moment for me, someone who loves the song so much, to be present while Sam and Matt played it together.  It was absolutely stunning.  It was also accompanied by great stories and anecdotes about the two of them being in Australia while Sam was working on Chemical City and Matt was on a surf trip, coming together and talking shop.  There were so many moments like that for all of the artists throughout the night because they are all friends and have all played together in the past.  Songwriter's circles are profound experiences for music lovers.  It gives you such intimate insight into the songs that shape you.  It's really beautiful, it deepens the admiration and the respect you feel for the artists and strengthens the love of the music in a unique fashion.

Matt delivered 'Indio' which was supple and soulful acoustically compared to the guns blazing version I heard at his Shore Club show just the other week.  It's a treat to watch someone who rocks his guts out perched on a stool with an acoustic guitar sharing a side of himself and his songs you wouldn't see otherwise.  Matt is a humble, charming individual with a tender heart and humorous side that could easily rival Shaun.  It's nice to get a glimpse into his humanness and just listen quietly.  The setting was also fortunate because he shared a new song with the crowd.  He set it up by saying that some of his close buds hated it and broke into it.  Gorgeous song.  Just gorgeous.  After he finished and the applause quieted, I roared laughing because Brian Byrne piped up and said, "Your friends are idiots!  You need a new set of friends."  I look forward to him recording it, hopefully for a new record.  He ended his songs with 'City of Lakes' deemed from a story told as 'Land o' Lakes'.  Jokes flew, people.  They flew.  It's hard not to be proud of our hometown boy, he makes home sound beautiful.  Truly.

Brian Byrne was just incredible.  He brings a lot of heart to the table, a mountain of passion, a wealth of wisdom and stories, and his songs are wonderful.  I don't know all of the songs he sung but he did an awe-inspiring version of U2's 'All I Want Is You' (my favorite U2 song to be true) that morphed into 'Ruby Tuesday' and a touch of 'Sympathy For The Devil'.  His voice is raw and effecting, he wears his humble heart on his sleeve and was so appreciative of the artists coming on board, donating their time to something that for he and his wife was a mere idea that had transformed into the presentation we were privy to.  There was a lot of love in the room and it was largely in part to his belief and dedication to the cause.  He ended his songs with one called 'Beautiful You' that I came home and downloaded from iTunes because I loved it.  It will be in heavy rotation for some time come, I can assure you.

Kim Harris was a delightful addition to the cast of artists.  I talked to her later at The Carleton and told her that whenever she does a local show of her own we wanted to come.  I discovered that she did a few shows at HUFF and was bummed I missed them.  She has a gorgeous voice and her songs are stunning.  She sang a song she wrote about losing her mother and dedicated to a young woman she met back stage who just lost hers and that loss was being used negatively against her in a social setting.  For all of those reasons combined and having the guys and the audience participate to sing the roof off the Cohn with the end bit was emotional.  I predict great things for the lone female presence on the bill.  Kind-hearted and talented.  Remember her name, Kim Harris.  You will love her.

The evening was deemed ‘an open window to a kitchen party that you’ll never be invited to’.  Brutally accurate.  We were afforded to a rare glimpse into the inner circle of artists who are friends, have been friends and have illustrious histories combined and great sometimes hilarious stories to tell and harmless dirt to dish on each other.  It was magnificent.  Truly the place to be last night.  I was mesmerized from the atmosphere, moved by the music and ached from laughing.  I hope they do it again next year.

Afterward, I finally took in a Carletones show.  I hadn’t had the chance to see them with Adam Baldwin at the helm.  So glad I did and I look forward future shows.  That guy deserves fame all on his own.  He’s righteous. 

And with that, I’m off.  Sunday calls.

In propinquity,
Nic

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

A Scribe's Skirmish


A Scribe’s Skirmish

writer’s conflict

the impossibility
of writing with

magnificence

contrasted with
the impossibility

of

abandoning
the challenge

writer’s conundrum

**

It's the last day of my quasi-vacation.  I had the long weekend and tacked two vacation days on the end to make a five day stretch off and boy did it fly by.  I honestly don't know where times goes.  Despite the wet weather, I had a pleasant rest and a bit of fun but it was mostly relaxing and good to replenish my spirit.  

I took in a play at Fringe, 'Go To Hell', my very talented banjo wielding relative Dawn Negus was in it.     It was an hour of constant laughter.  Smart and sharp witted writing by Michael Best and gut-busting performances by the whole cast.  Here is the Fringe program description:  Turns out, the Christians were right - all gays DO go to Hell.  Johnson, a self-absorbed gay lawyer dies rather ignominiously after a tussle with a mechanical bull goes horribly awry.  He finds himself in one circle of Hell, and immediately tries to negotiate a way out.  But when his best friend's soul is on the line, how far will he go?  A brand new twist on the classic 'make a deal with the Devil' story.  It did not disappoint.  I joined Fringe-goers in the tiny Bus Stop Theatre, beer in hand, finding it difficult to sip because I was too scared I might spit it out on the person in front of me, it was that funny.  So glad I didn't miss it.  And, being somewhat of a wimp, I almost opted to stay home because of the rain but I am glad I went.

Had I not gone, I wouldn't have ended up at The Carleton.  I considered a ton of options of where to eat on Labor Day Monday.  I was trying to be strategic so that I wouldn't be too far from the theatre, but I am a creature of habit and went where I feel at home.  I entered the bar, refuge from the wind and drizzle and walked into Dave Lowery's rehearsal for his show later that night as part of HUFF (the Halifax Urban Folk Festival).  What good fortune!  While I dined, I was lucky enough to hear a large portion of his show.  Some of you may remember him from bands like Cracker and Camper Van Beethoven.  The song 'Low' jog your memory?  Doesn't ring a bell?  You-tube it.  I am certain it'll sound familiar.  At any rate, it was all sorts of awesome.  And, it turns out, Dawn was singing back-up with him so that was double awesome.  First Charlie Sexton, then Dave Lowery, who is next!?  Hmm.

Sunday was a total veg day.  I caught up on a ton of DVR's movies.  I watched the biopic about Nelson Mandela's wife 'Winnie', Hugh Jackman sang mournfully to me in 'Les Mis', I watched HBO's 'The Girl' about the tumultuous relationship between Alfred Hitchcock and Tippi Hedren who starred in 'The Birds' and 'Marnie'.  I also took in my first Bond flick in years, 'Skyfall'.  I haven't seen Daniel Craig's 007 until now and wasn't completely sold but after 'Skyfall' I am convinced he's suitable.   I also watched my beloved Leonardo Dicaprio in 'J Edgar'.  And THEN, speaking of gorgeous Leo, I finnnnnallllly saw 'Gatsby'.  FINALLY!  Sheesh. It is FABULOUS.  I am still not one hundred percent sold on the modern music that is included but it was visually stunning and beautifully re-imagined by Baz Luhrmann.  It was perfection.  Leo as Gatsby was a masterful casting decision and Tobey Maguire was incredible and believable as Nick Carroway.  It's such an extravagant and tragic story but that green light socks my gut.  Hope.  It's powerful.  I can't wait to see it again.  So yeah, all caught up just in time for fall TV to soon begin.  

I'm currently prepping laundry and mulling over lunch options for tomorrow.  I am also going to comb through 'Large-Hearted' because I found some of my tense flops that need to be fixed.  I did manage to write a little bit on it and two writing prompts by hand since I've been off.  One is too personal to transcribe and the other one isn't worth sharing but I wrote so I'm okay with it.  And of course, the teeny poem above, written today while enjoying a sandwich and tea by my sunny window.  I also prepared Ruthie's birthday box to go in the mail tomorrow.  That was a challenge with Booger Cat lurking.  She went buck nutty when I pulled out the ribbon and kept her at bay while I snipped, wrapped and ribboned everything.  I placed everything in the box and went to my writing room to write a short note to explain my gifts only to go back and discover she'd gnawed at the ribbon a little, right on the packages!! Little bugger.  I had to doctor my ribbon as I was flush out.  So Ru, if you're reading this, I apologize!  Haha.  

Two days of work and then it's the weekend again, that'll be surreal.  I'm excited for it to get here though because Erica and I going to see Sam Roberts Saturday evening at the Rebecca Cohen.  Acoustic.  With Matt Mays (I hope, he canceled a gig in Cape Breton on Monday due to illness so I'm hoping he's feeling better to be there) and Brian Byrne.  Something to look forward to.

Editing and tea for me now.  

I hope you're smiling today.

In propinquity,
Nic


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Take It On Faith

I decided after a glorious weekend away to give myself the week off from writing.  I started the prompts and then swiftly abandoned them in exchange for down time in Hubbards.  I did intend to write my last prompt on Saturday but I just didn’t get around to it.  I was too busy enjoying this:



My friends and I had a stunning weekend.  We had a scrumptious lobster dinner at the Shore Club, lounged at our Inn on the patio with a breath-taking view of Hubbards Cove drinking wine, laughing, talking and marveled at sun set.  Before long it was time to hike around the corner, back to the Shore Club and cue up for the Matt Mays show.  I have had the good fortune of seeing him play several times but this particular show was, by far, the most outstanding, the most fun.  I attribute it mostly my companions and to the venue because I always have fun there, it’s impossible not to.  The show itself was a hell-on-wheels rock ‘n’ roll show’.  Young River warmed up the stage and got the crowd primed and are quite good all on their own.  As soon as they were finished we took a few large steps and ended up right in the front for Matt Mays.  While it is true that I the next morning my ears were still ringing from being so close to the front monitors, I was ridiculously stuffed up dangerously close to black lung from the smoke machine but my heart was happy.  There is something heartening about Matt’s music, something that sounds like … well … home.  It feels like home to me and offers the sense that I am right where I belong.  Plus, you can belt the tunes out good and loud in a live setting, even if the long skinny fringes of the singer’s swanky black jacket are poking out your eyes and he’s standing on your purse as he sings into the crowd on the mere edge of the gear box the monitors were resting on.  Needless to say, we left the venue happy and sweaty and elated.  Arriving back to work Monday morning was a slap in the face because I was still slightly jubilant from the weekend away.  It was hard to re-adjust to reality after the overwhelming sense of peacefulness I felt in Hubbards, because I was with warm-hearted humans, because I was breathing easy, because I was in a drama-free zone and I was content.  Best weekend getaway in recent memory.  It was much needed and deeply appreciated by all involved.

On Thursday night is also worth mentioning a small delight.  I was sitting at The Carleton having a drink with my friend Heather.  I was seated at the end of the bar by the entrance and a group of people caught my attention when they entered.  I after doing what I’m sure was a tripe take, he shot me a smile.  I looked at Heather and said, “Is that Charlie Sexton!?”  She shrugged at me and sipped her beer but I was determined to find out.  It turns out it was.  I flexed up my the gonads to cart myself over and say hello.  The singer of 80’s hits like ‘Beats So Lonely’ and ‘Impressed’ towered over me, still sporting those perfect cheekbones, he was quite delighted I knew who he was.   I stood and conversed with him for a few minutes, why he was in Halifax, what he’s been up to and a little about the Arc Angels project he did that I love, he has warm hands and a kind disposition.  What a neat thing to have happened.  Completely random and quite cool. 

So this self-imposed writing hiatus is a little bit painful but my days are long this week and by the time I get home my brain is mush and I don’t really have a spare minute to create anything.  I do scribble, words, thoughts, ideas, and names but it isn’t the same.  I look forward to Friday being over and having five whole days off to relax and open my mind back up to all things creative.  I’m itching to finish ‘Large-Hearted’, so that’s a goal.  Fingers crossed.

I’ll take it on faith.

In propinquity,

Nic

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Anti-Poetry


Anti-Poetry

irony is lonely

fanciful writing
it bothers the heart

a superstitious business
a poet’s abundance

dissertations of inferiority
flags of blunt vigilance

interrupt the fluid music

where secrets are silent
charisma is deceptive
intention is bewildering

abandoned satire
lonesome writing

irony is lonely
lonely is mine

**

What a lovely weekend.  The sun shone and continues to shine today accompanied by a cool breeze through my window as I type.  Friday evening, I witnessed love.  I attended the wedding reception of a friend and felt the full abundance of true love.  It was wonderful.  I had a lovely time talking to other people on the precipice of marriage and who are walking in joy.  Their company, under the twinkly lights, reminded me that true love does indeed rule and it is attainable.  I appreciate good humans with kind hearts who can instill that value, the value of tenderness and combined spirit.  May have fueled a few scribbles but we'll soon see.

Saturday morning's sun came out for the Eastern Passage/Cow Bay Summer Carnival parade.  My town has an annual carnival for as long as I can remember.  My only participation this year was taking in the parade with my pals.  The best part, A&W rootbeer suckers.  Nom!  Erica and I took her daughter over to Halifax afterward and had a bite to eat on the Carleton patio and browsed around for a little bit.  I was pleased we did because I discovered a french cafe I can't wait to try and stumbled by the entrance to Inkwell, a modern handmade boutique and letterpress studio.  The stationary junkie in me was quite pleased.  I browsed the gorgeous handmade cards, prints, paper and accessories in the summer heat.  I was a little mesmerized.  I bought two pieces, a wedding card for friends tying the knot at the end of the month and something sweet and simple for my next card tag with Ru.  Can't wait to be 'it'!

Today, I managed a poem.  Something small and seemingly uninspired.  I also am considering of pulling out my 'Large-Hearted' pages and going somewhere to edit for a bit, depending on my dinner plans.  I'm buying time blogging until I find out how my day will pan out.

I may have had too good of a time yesterday because once the evening came, I wasn't feeling well.  I curled up with comfy blankets and pillows and finished off S2 of the now canceled NBC show 'Smash'.  I loved the first season, the creation, workshop and mounting of a musical based on the life of Marilyn Monroe and waited patiently for the second season to be released on DVD.  It came out on the 6th of this month.  It arrived in my mailbox two days later and I'm already finished.  While the first season was all about character development, the musical and the music, the second season packed an emotional punch.  I didn't weep once first season but in the last half of the second I was a sobbing fool! I am sad it was axed by the network because it was original, full of characters you just fall in love with and root for.  Despite it being canceled, they ended it on a perfect note.  I'm going to really miss it and spending time on Broadway.

Happy Sunday to you and yours.  Go easy and count your blessings, another work week is upon us.

In propinquity,
Nic