Lost Boy
when we lost you
I sat in front of my
Kmart radio and wept
your absence
was not a fate
but a deep fury
amplified by losing
the privilege to visit
and watch you grow
too much to abide
dealing in despair
grasping memories
it was a long-lived
and sullen loneliness
the forced separation
you became the shadows
in all of my short-stories
quiet whispers in my poems
when we lost you
my heart capsized
my lungs closed
no words would come
I was unable to pray
I couldn’t find you
yet I love you
(always)
as if you
(always)
as if you
weren’t lost to us at all
**
Small poem. Big meaning.
In propinquity,
Nic
**
Small poem. Big meaning.
In propinquity,
Nic
Wow. This one hurts. If I may be so clinical, the phrase "my heart capsized" just flattened me. I perceive an untimely death, not fate but something more sinister that bears the same result. I'm sorry, sweetie. Yikes, this one really hits hard.
ReplyDeleteMore bravery. More beauty sprung from it. More love from me to you.
My heart still feels it. Like it happened yesterday.
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