Today marks the first wedding anniversary that my step-mom is enduring without my Dad. I called her this evening to say hi, to check in, to give my love. She cried openly and so full of sorrow, tears coming straight up and out of her broken heart into mine. The firsts, holidays, occasions, will be the toughest, I know but I'm not sure the pain will ever truly subside.
I miss my Dad. I still reach for the telephone when there's something I want to share. I still have yet to cry. After tonight, talking with her and doing my best to be comforting, I can feel it there just under the surface. I'm due. I wish I could just let it out.
I am posting this song tonight in lieu of a writing blog post. A friend of mine shared 'Save A Prayer' on Facebook tonight and it led me to listen to this version she also reminded me of. It holds a special place in my heart and is just so beautiful. It seems a fitting song for the day.
Saving a prayer, for the morning after - forever and ever and ever.
In propinquity,
Nic
