Saturday, December 3, 2016

He'd Be A Pretender



He’d Been A Pretender

strange months
of old town blues
the awful romance
of it all worn clean
on the curl of his lip

he’d been a pretender

pretentious
                contentious
fabricated

strange months
in the wilderness
the firm resistance
of it all worn blunt
in his empty gaze

he’d been a pretender

**

So many pretenders.

That is all.

Happy Saturday!

In propinquity,
Nic



Tuesday, November 22, 2016

This Pause



This Pause

this pause
is for a poem
creative
redemptive
sanctifying
a horde of
raw material
                manipulated
to purge
the ugliness
                to forge
a path to beauty

**

My thoughts are full of strife at the moment and in looking for ways to ease them, a poem. I’ve been feeling quite left of center lately, so when inspiration strikes you grab it. You get your hands on it and you hold on tight. You don’t let it go: and so, a poem.

I will be seeking refuge shortly after I leave my work desk today; a jaunt in the cold, under a grey sky where daylight will slip away quickly. Errands. Well, one, acquiring a vessel to transport precious Christmas cargo west. It is an important task and one that will lift the spirits knowing that when I get home I can place all the pretty things inside with a little of my love and gratitude.

However you spend your evening, I hope it is delightful.

In propinquity,
Nic




Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Apt Metaphors


Apt Metaphors

somewhere unplumbed
somewhere concealed
                hidden deep
inside the wilderness of
                the human spirit
euphoniousness
                benevolence
                                clemency
all will upend
the insipid visage
of the crestfallen
somewhere secreted
                a susurrous echoing
will call verity to the peripheral
                the potent will temper
& the Amorians will once again
                inhabit
the richness of their imminent                  
                impressive front

**

It is palpable: the odium that has risen up to the surface and has flooded our information highways, our neighborhoods, our daily lives, our worst nightmares. The US election has held the entire world in a tight fist of anxiety right up until the stunning realization that a fascist will now be in charge of the free world. A spray-tanned elitist with his spoiled family are soon to replace a formidable leader, one of which the world may not see for some years to come, if ever. I read all of these stories about racial unrest, redneck gun-toting rhetoric, sexist slurs: all of this abhorrence has boiled up and splayed an abhorrent shadow across all of the things that are good in this world. I have to believe goodness will prevail; I have to believe it out-weighs the ugliness, I have to believe that intelligence and beauty has reining power over the foul. I have to. I take comfort in the motto that love trumps hate. I have to believe it does, I just HAVE to.

And so, this poem.

In propinquity,

Nic

Friday, November 11, 2016

Efficient Little Stanza


Forgive me. I know it is Remembrance Day but I woke up with swollen eyes and a heavy heart, going to bed with the knowledge poetry’s Holy Grail had died. It has been a tough year, 2016, for fallen artists, important ones, but this socked me so hard I could hardly sleep. It likens to the emotions felt when I heard Gord Downie was afflicted. I knew Leonard wasn’t well but I hung on his promise that he’d live forever, the same way I always believed of my father.

I was up early. Brewed myself a cup of coffee in my ‘cup of longing’ (a souvenir I covet from his show in Halifax a few years back that changed my whole entire insides), and started writing. I apologize, as I am not as articulate today as I can and should be. I am just heartsick and saddened. All of the tributes flooding the internet helps, recalling Adam Cohen’s uplifting show at The Carleton where he performed ‘So Long, Marianne’ and I wept profusely out of my left eye the whole time refusing to breathe or else I’d blubber, shaking his hand and talking briefly about his father and his own talents: all helps.

Leonard Cohen, at 82, left the table but left behind a body of work and a resonating influence that will last even long after I’m gone. It has been such a wondrous journey, following him, learning from him, listening to him, celebrating him.

Au revoir, fallen star. I love you.   

**

Efficient Little Stanza

you left the table

I remain
under fedora brim
topping up
two fingers of rot gut
whiskey
with brackish tear-jewels

last we met
I was in a state
you reminded
me to remain
reflective
& unburdened
to make art
to take my good time

you smoked cigarettes
I glugged robust coffee
I wept  
                & you laughed
I was disheveled
& you of course
                always
dressed for ecstasy
our last meeting
                is tied up in an
efficient little stanza
                handwritten
in a moleskine journal
                for safe keeping

now
                you’ve left the table
I remain
                your old pin-striped
grey flannel jacket
                draped over my shoulders
your poetry on my tongue
               
birds on the wire
                did not warn me
you would be gone
                when I arrived

                so long, love
it’s been nice knowin’ ya

**

Remembering my literary hero today as well as all of those who have fought for our freedoms. So many emotions today. So many.

In propinquity and in Flanders Field,
Nic






Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Pop Art Pack Rat


Pop Art Pack Rat

Pop Art
Grand Poohbah
Tsar sat high
in an exalted
tin-foiled office
among
prefab superstars
heroin heads
wannabes
hangers-on
one of his mega
zillion white wigs
shoots up
                tickles the
lashes of fizzled out
fallen angels
while he imitates
w/ forged artistic
oomph
Campbell soup cans
paints a first lady red
multiplies Marilyn
in silk-screen surprise
                while in secret
created chaotic clutter
in his humble abode
squirreling away              
                airplane menus
                unpaid invoices
                pizza dough
                porno pulp novels
                grocery fliers     
                                & stamps
                a mummified foot
Caroline Kennedy’s birthday
                                cake
                kitschy cookie jars
                in the shapes of
                                dogs     
                                pigs &
                                pandas
                dead insects &
invitations to events he
                did not attend
a skinny four story space             
                                stuffed
                crammed
                                610 boxes
heaving with stuff
His confession:
“I can’t throw anything out.”

**

I forgot that famed pop artist Andy Warhol was an over-zealous hoarder. I was reminded of this fact the other day skimming an article online. It stuck with me and as with many other things, served as food for a poem. It’s such an interesting morsel of his fascinating and multifarious life, certain he had hoarding down to a shambolic art-form despite the desire for a clean space. His stuff got the better of him. Another eccentricity he personified.

I wonder if it is a creative affliction? I have, for many years, been known to store away a great many things due to their sentimental value. The older I get, the more I am inclined to part with things, especially the collection of things that I truly don't need or that no longer bring me joy. I'm not as apt to hold on to every-single-thing anymore. But, there is a decent mountain of goodies that could still go heave-ho. I'm not necessarily a hoarder but I do often lean toward collecting the tokens that color my experiences or my history. I've stopping stashing the most important items and limit myself to adding to the rock wall instead. Wait, did I just totally contradict myself?!

In propinquity,
Nic


Monday, October 24, 2016

Ghostly Tricks in Eastern Passage



I have been digging back into the archives, reading some of the stories that I wrote way back when for a local newspaper. I was tasked with writing ‘stories from the past’ for the Eastern Passage and surrounding areas. Some of the stories came to me by way of my Dad. I want to preserve some of them here and with Halloween coming, I thought this one would be appropriate to begin with.

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Ghostly Tricks in Eastern Passage

Are you superstitious?  Panic when you see an owl in daylight?  Knock on wood?  Shrink when a black cat crosses your path, your heart skips a beat when you break mirror so you tie your handkerchief in a knot to ward off evil?  If you're one of those people who avoids walking under ladders or counts crows this story of a prank played on an old Eastern Passage resident who was superstitious will appeal to you.  Leo had an active imagination and was genuinely spooked by ghosts.

Ghost is a word derived from the Saxon word gaste, meaning spirit. In common usage, a ghost is the soul of a dead person that becomes visible to the living. Psychic researchers refer to a ghost as a recurring apparition.  A ghost does not inter react with the living but rather repeats the same action over and over, like a tape being replayed again and again.  Leo was well aware of the activity of ghosts and it sent him into a tizzy just thinking about it.

In the 1940s, the young men of Eastern Passage could often be found hanging out at the Myers Pool Hall on Quigley's Corner.  Leo was one of the usual suspects.  You could spot him easily by his wild tuft of curly hair fopping about while making his way around in his bare feet on his trusty bicycle.  Not a fan of the washtub, his idea of 'cleaning up' was applying a little powder and he was ready to go.   He was a comic sort, often a casualty of horseplay.

Al and the other guys in the pool hall were notorious storytellers.  Devising antics of tomfoolery and telling harebrained fibs while chalking up their cues.   He knew Leo was scared of the dark and particularly of ghosts.  At nightfall, Leo would always rush home, passing the graveyard at St. Andrew's Church. He would pedal fast, his heart racing until he was safely by without incident.  Al knew this and used it to his advantage.

One evening, Al was in the mood to rile up a little mischief.  Night fell to a black hush and Leo mounted his bicycle giving himself a push start off home down the dirt road.  As usual, the closer he came to the graveyard, the quicker his pulse raced.  St. Andrew's cemetery sent chills down his spine especially in the dark. Al, being good with detail knew all of this and decided he would treat Leo to the fright of his life.  Leo pedaled with a fevered pace evading all that goes bump in the night, stiff on top of his bike, focusing straight ahead.  Al was waiting for him behind one of the larger headstones in the cemetery with a ghastly white sheet draped over his head.  When Leo approached, sweaty and nervous Al, in his clever disguise jumped out at the wiry haired man aping the sounds that we imagine ghosts make.  “WOOWWWHOAAAA!”  Leo's eyes widened with sudden fear and jumped ten feet in the air nearly throwing himself off of his bicycle.  He jerked his pedals so hard he snapped the chain spinning his dirty feet creating a billowing cloud of dust behind him.  Al watched Leo, spooked to his core race off pushing his bike with his feet all the way home.  All Al could do was laugh.  He returned to the pool hall to recount his caper to the boys.

The next evening Leo told the story of how he was attacked by an aggressive spirit rising out of the cemetery.  He had every man in the pool hall in stitches, standing in the middle of the room replaying the scene, his hair still wild, and his eyes popping.  Al chuckled and confessed to Leo it was him dressed up in a sheet trying to fool him but Leo wouldn't hear any of it, he knew better than to believe anything that came out of his mouth.  He went on believing that there was in fact a ghost out for revenge and pedaled quicker every night after on his way home.


**

I miss my Dad telling me stories, especially after being afforded the opportunity to tour through the Myers homestead yesterday with family. The walls vibrate with history and stories and shenanigans. I wish I knew every single one of them so I could write them down.

I’ve got a few more ghost stories from the area I used in those news stories to share here in the coming week. It’s so much fun re-reading them now.


In propinquity,
Nic

Friday, October 14, 2016

Je Est Un Autre



Je Est Un Autre

I am another
willfully opaque
unable to choose
between
an Olivetti typewriter or
a leopard skin pillbox hat
I am another
where you are not
                between
the present moment or
a place of grave vacancy
I am another
better than words
more lovely than
                a dream of
                serene wiles
I am another
a minute vertical line
counterpoint
to the void of course
I am another
here only to
translate the surge
                of           
arbitrary signs
               
**

There are nods in this poem to men I greatly admire: a recent Nobel Prize winner, the Senior Cohen, and someone who this summer, united a Canada I believe in and love, through music and compassion. Poetry, for me, is my outlet, it’s my vehicle, it’s my happy place - where today I have encapsulated three venerable human beings in the medium we each call home.

In propinquity,

Nic