Friday, August 30, 2013

Goodbye, Seamus Heaney

April 13, 1939 - August 30, 2013 


"I credit poetry for making this space-walk possible."  - Seamus Heaney

Another poet promoted to Angel status.  Seamus Heaney, thank you for all of the words you shared, words that enriched the world, words that inspired.  You will be missed.

Take some time today and read your favorite poets, past and present.  Revel in the sweet lyrical art they create.  It's a beautiful thing.

In propinquity, 
Nic


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Take It On Faith

I decided after a glorious weekend away to give myself the week off from writing.  I started the prompts and then swiftly abandoned them in exchange for down time in Hubbards.  I did intend to write my last prompt on Saturday but I just didn’t get around to it.  I was too busy enjoying this:



My friends and I had a stunning weekend.  We had a scrumptious lobster dinner at the Shore Club, lounged at our Inn on the patio with a breath-taking view of Hubbards Cove drinking wine, laughing, talking and marveled at sun set.  Before long it was time to hike around the corner, back to the Shore Club and cue up for the Matt Mays show.  I have had the good fortune of seeing him play several times but this particular show was, by far, the most outstanding, the most fun.  I attribute it mostly my companions and to the venue because I always have fun there, it’s impossible not to.  The show itself was a hell-on-wheels rock ‘n’ roll show’.  Young River warmed up the stage and got the crowd primed and are quite good all on their own.  As soon as they were finished we took a few large steps and ended up right in the front for Matt Mays.  While it is true that I the next morning my ears were still ringing from being so close to the front monitors, I was ridiculously stuffed up dangerously close to black lung from the smoke machine but my heart was happy.  There is something heartening about Matt’s music, something that sounds like … well … home.  It feels like home to me and offers the sense that I am right where I belong.  Plus, you can belt the tunes out good and loud in a live setting, even if the long skinny fringes of the singer’s swanky black jacket are poking out your eyes and he’s standing on your purse as he sings into the crowd on the mere edge of the gear box the monitors were resting on.  Needless to say, we left the venue happy and sweaty and elated.  Arriving back to work Monday morning was a slap in the face because I was still slightly jubilant from the weekend away.  It was hard to re-adjust to reality after the overwhelming sense of peacefulness I felt in Hubbards, because I was with warm-hearted humans, because I was breathing easy, because I was in a drama-free zone and I was content.  Best weekend getaway in recent memory.  It was much needed and deeply appreciated by all involved.

On Thursday night is also worth mentioning a small delight.  I was sitting at The Carleton having a drink with my friend Heather.  I was seated at the end of the bar by the entrance and a group of people caught my attention when they entered.  I after doing what I’m sure was a tripe take, he shot me a smile.  I looked at Heather and said, “Is that Charlie Sexton!?”  She shrugged at me and sipped her beer but I was determined to find out.  It turns out it was.  I flexed up my the gonads to cart myself over and say hello.  The singer of 80’s hits like ‘Beats So Lonely’ and ‘Impressed’ towered over me, still sporting those perfect cheekbones, he was quite delighted I knew who he was.   I stood and conversed with him for a few minutes, why he was in Halifax, what he’s been up to and a little about the Arc Angels project he did that I love, he has warm hands and a kind disposition.  What a neat thing to have happened.  Completely random and quite cool. 

So this self-imposed writing hiatus is a little bit painful but my days are long this week and by the time I get home my brain is mush and I don’t really have a spare minute to create anything.  I do scribble, words, thoughts, ideas, and names but it isn’t the same.  I look forward to Friday being over and having five whole days off to relax and open my mind back up to all things creative.  I’m itching to finish ‘Large-Hearted’, so that’s a goal.  Fingers crossed.

I’ll take it on faith.

In propinquity,

Nic

Thursday, August 22, 2013

The Ring


The Ring

I lost myself somewhere in the darkness.  Just for a second.  I like to think of it as a little hiccup in my autobiography, nothing shocking, nothing out of the ordinary, and nothing to be ashamed of.  It happens to everyone; sadness will creep in, tarnish your smile and truncate your happiness.  It is temporary, like a writer falling to writer’s block.  It is an interval for them to replenish the well of inspiration, the same kind of idea for me, but someone ordinary with an aversion to activity and proclivity for uninterrupted introversion, a time-out, a mere moment to make room for more joy.  I am inching closer to contentment every day, moving further into the light; just a blip, a wrong turn, a minor setback.  I am on my way.

It is a beautiful day outside in my miniature courtyard retreat.  I like the sense of seclusion so close to the city scape.  The hum of morning traffic just beyond my backyard fence and the shade of tall willowed trees, I feel safe but not alone.  This morning I coil up in my weepy lounge chair with a cup of vanilla oolong tea and take in the tranquil trickle and colours of my koi pond, I take refuge in their hues; midnight blacks, bright reds, creamy yellows, electric blues.  I place a little food in my hand and slowly lower it down into the water to watch them swim to nourish themselves right from my palm.  When I draw my hand out I am aware of the ring on my finger.  I still haven’t taken it off. 


The ring, a gold wire wrap design adorned with a single Swarovski pearl is all I have left to remind me.  The ring, a glimmer of hope, of possibility, a line to the past, where my heart is, where my grace resides.

**

This is all I could muster after ten minutes on the prompt.  Today's was to write a scene that uses the following words: wire, pond, truncate.  That's why you'll see each of them intalicized.  I wasn't going for quantity, I was aiming for quality. I hope there's a bit of quality to ten minutes of scribbling.  It's short but sweet.  Maybe like me?

It's my Friday!  Yay!  I'm hitting the big city tonight to visit with my pal Heather and then hope to enjoy a rainy day off tomorrow being leisurely with pens, paper, books, the remote and preparing for my night away in Hubbards.  Two more sleeps!

Happy Thursday!

In propinquity,
Nic

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Happy Accident



Happy Accident

Serendipity.  It was the first word; I swear on my wee little life, the first word I saw when I opened the dictionary.  Today’s writing prompt: write a story that starts with a word you pick out of the dictionary at random.  What are the odds that my eyes would fall arbitrarily on a word defined as the faculty or phenomenon of finding valuable or agreeable things not sought for?  It was pleasant surprise, very serendipitous in fact.  The universe somehow magically manages to connect the dots with happy accidents, like me finding such a fortunately ironic word for a writing prompt exercise, like Isaac Newton’s famed apple dropping from a tree that led him to his musings about the nature of gravitation or like my friend Nan reluctantly attending a wedding reception only to meet the love of her life.  She snuck into the tent out in the middle of a field in New Ross and quietly sat herself at the most inconspicuous table in the back.  She hated her friend’s bride with the fire of a thousand suns but couldn’t bring herself to actually miss what would most likely be the most important day of his life.  While she dressed herself in a simple summer dress and sling back shoes she reminded herself that it is more important to support your loved ones and not judge.  As long as Jack was happy, who was she to disagree.

Under the big top and twinkly lights Nan sat with her legs crossed sipping champagne with a strawberry bobbing at the bottom of the flute  listening to the wedding band play a pleasant version of ‘Stand by Me’.  A voice spoke close to her ear, in a husky masculine tone, “Friend of the bride or the groom?”

Nan stifled a gasp from the chill the mystery man sent down her bare spine.  She cleared her throat and slowly turned to meet her table companion, “The groom.  You?”

He flashed a smile that near blinded her, “Blushing bride.”

Nan’s reply flew nervously out through her lips, “Sorry to hear that.”

Playful laughter erupted from her table’s handsome and unwelcome guest, “Tell me how you really feel?”  He extended his hand and introduced himself, “Carson Morrow, pleasure.”

She took his hand and watched while he placed a soft kiss on the top of her fingers, “Nan Forbes, likewise.”

He stood, straightening out his disheveled tie and looked down to her, “Care to dance, pretty girl?”

It took her a long time to answer because in that one moment staring up at him, she fell in head over heels in love, claiming his eyes destroyed her, “I’d love to.”

And they danced; all night, all the way into the next day and the next.  Serendipity in action. 

I guess my writing prompt isn’t so much a story as it is the account of Nan’s new flourishing romance.  I am so pleased for her, such happenstance to have found Carson on a night when she was certain would be miserable.   Much the same as it was some kind of karmic fate I settled my eyes on serendipity when I sat down to write today.

**

I missed yesterday’s writing prompt because I wasn’t feeling well.  I crashed after work with a raging headache and so I didn’t get anything down.  If time permits today, there may be a double dose of Teapot but if not I won’t beat myself up too much.  Today’s was light and fortunate.  Landing that word is exactly its definition.  Too cool.

Tomorrow is my Friday which I’m happy about.  I look forward to a three day weekend and am happy that it’s finally Hubbards weekend!  I plan to have coffee and chatter with my pal Heather tomorrow after work and I may even get a card tag to Ru out seeing as I got one from her yesterday with a hilarious quote on the cover.  I also received a lovely card from Erica too that meant a lot to me, it feels good to be loved.

I’ve had my soup and soon it’ll be time for green tea and my pear.  Three more hours of this work day and I can go enjoy the sun. Yippee!

I wish you happy accidents all day long.

In propinquity,
Nic


Monday, August 19, 2013

Smells Like Teen Spirit


Today's writing prompt:  write a scene that involves the scent of a teenager.  You decide what that means. Here's what came:

Smells Like Teen Spirit

I almost forget what it’s like to be a teenager.  Gone are the days of 16 Magazine, Friday Night Videos, acne, slouch socks to shield my thick ankles, baggy shirts to disguise my quickly changing body and Jovan Musk permanently embedded in my skin to hide profuse sweating.  I was a tidy kid, respectful, didn’t talk back to my parents for fear of a back-hander and I did well in school and was proud of it, quick to rub my friend’s noses in it because when you’re a kid, everything is a competition, right? 

I am reminded of these things when I enter my 13 year old niece’s bedroom.   If I could take you back in time to my teenage bedroom, you’d see my bed centered in my room, brass headboard, girly linens, a million tear-stained pillows to throw my dramatic face in when things didn’t go my way, walls papered with posters of 80s icons, Duran Duran, Culture Club, Michael Jackson, Madonna, INXS and everything in its right place.  The deal was I wasn’t allowed to hang my posters unless my room kept clean at all times and I kept my grades up.

Entering Holly’s room is a literally an enter at your own risk situation.  When I think of younger teenage girls, I imagine soft and vibrant contrasting pink hues, fuzzy stuffed things, pretty jewelry, fashionable clothes, perfume, and diaries with little skimpy locks, palates of cheap make-up, maybe One Direction and Pretty Little Liar posters.  It’s fair to say that Holly’s room is a science experiment.  Opening the door was an immediate struggle.  A mountain of wet bath towels hindered my entrance into the hazy dim lit room, “Holls, are you in here?”

“Over here,” she says shooting her hand up from behind a stack of school books and other junk that is supposed to be her desk, the one I passed down to her from my trendy teenage boudoir, “doing my math homework before soccer practice.  Are you gonna come?” 

I am aghast at the smell that stings my eyes and offends my nose.  What the hell is that smell?

“Of course I am.  Finish up your homework, dinner is almost ready and then I’ll drive you to over to the field.”

I couldn’t risk being exposed too much longer; the odor would have ruined my appetite.    I take my seat back at the kitchen table where my sister Lara is preparing dinner, “What is that pungent odor in Holly’s room!?

She half laughs and then scowls, “Let’s see, probably a combination of dirty dishes, half eaten things, soccer cleats, wet towels, the dollar store rip off of Davidoff’s Cool Water perfume and a month’s worth of filth, sweat and farts.”

“I don’t understand.  You leave her room like that!?”

“You know, my daughter is a lovely girl.  She’s bright and focused on her school work and on the soccer field, she’s sensitive and for the most part she’s responsible but the truth is she’s a slob.  And, she’s thirteen now, I refuse to pick up after her.  If she wants to live like a miscreant so be it. ”

“It smells like something died in there.  I almost fell over.  I couldn’t believe the mess in there, the piles of stuff.  There’s no floor!”

“I am constantly on her to clean her room telling her that if her father or I go in there fishing dirty plates out from underneath her bed or find creepy crawly things under a damp bath towel, she’s in trouble.  She’s soon due for another major cleaning spree, I know, it’s disgusting.”

“I am almost positive Jabba the Hut lives in there with her.  I am just flabbergasted.  I’d expect it from a teenage boy, but Holly!?”

Lara placed a crisp colourful salad in the middle of the dinner table and poured me a glass of wine.  “Teenagers are soooo much fun.”

I took a gulp, “A barrel of monkeys apparently.”

“Smells like one too!” 

**

Oh, to be young again.

Happy Monday!

In propinquity,
Nic

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Written Sideways



Today's prompt as I mentioned didn't really have a subject, its only rule was to turn your paper sideways and write, ignoring the lines if there were any.  Funny because I do this all the time or I fold a piece of blank paper in half and write on all of the folds.  Since I could write whatever I wanted, I started a poem and came up with this:

Written Sideways

the Sunday New York Times and crossword puzzles
your Ramones t-shirt, the toll of the mission bells
and a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios with skim milk

modern love

the crazy amount of time we wasted laughing too hard
the countless hours of drawing big dreams in the sand

modern love making

a stack of old issues of Rolling Stone magazines
a plate of vegetables cheese fresh bread and red wine

modern love taking its time

after countless afternoons of conversations with myself
my mind entertains wisdom my body doesn’t understand

modern love making it’s move

gazing thoughtfully down on us who have never known

true love

written sideways

I turn to you

**


I am officially, certifiably spent.  I had a great weekend in the gorgeous weather.  I spent Friday evening with Colleen watching Jurassic Park on the Halifax waterfront and yesterday road tripped to my big brother's house for his annual gathering.  I had a really good time this year (constant headache notwithstanding) because a big chunk of my family came.  There were shenanigans, fireworks, a bonfire, guitars and singing and gut-busting laughter.  It was fantastic and I was also told I'm going to be a great auntie again!  My nephew Cory and his finance Katie are expecting.  Always lovely to hear of new life bound for this earth.  Another little one to snuggle and spoil.  I'm happy for them and my brother is ecstatic about being a grandfather.  So nice for he and my sister 'n' law.  God news is good news is good news.  Babies rule.

Two writing prompts and zero story work this weekend.  I am disgraceful.  This week, I WILL work.

Dexter then sleep.  

Goodnight, moon.

In propinquity,
Nic




Arena


I am day behind on my writing prompts because yesterday I attended an annual family function which required road tripping.  I scribbled a tiny bit but I am giving myself permission right now for a do-over. I found it hard to write on the move, distracted by the gorgeous scenery en route to New Glasgow, NS, the radio and car conversation.  I'm a little tired and headachy so this isn't my best effort, it's loose and sloppy but I wrote something down and that's all that matters.

The prompt was for the scene to take place in an arena, here's what came:

Arena

I have traveled through some of the most miserable parts of the world to be here tonight in this arena.  Our last show of a long grueling world tour, I can finally retire the vanity required to climb into the spotlight and deliver what the masses pay good hard-earned money to see; antics, blood, and in turn they leave the echo of adoration.

The crew is dismantling our set.  The rest of the band has gone back to the bus but I sometimes like to take a seat and watch them work.   They converge like a beautiful, well-oiled machine, flawless and coordinated.  Observing their concise movement akin to a covert military maneuver.  I am awash with gratitude.  It’s gripping to watch them pull apart what they had only just built for me so that I can work for a few small hours.  I am indebted to these busy bodies for erecting my office, for having my back, for making me look good, for creating the largest part of an audience’s experience, for thinking on their feet.  For example, we pulled into this one town in Europe expecting to present a full frontal rock show and the venue was an old church.  Amidst all of the confusion, they quickly scaled the set back and turned God’s former house into a stunning Heaven for a thousand fans.  No easy feat but they did it.  For us.  They remind me to stay humble.  They are that good. 

I am watching them in awe and Gaz Dale, our tour manager approaches, “Great show tonight, Boss.  I thought you might be hungry so I had someone run out and grab you an onion bagel with vegetable cream cheese,” he hands me the brown bag and looks down on the crew from the top row of the lower bowl,  “You good?”

“Oh yeah, I’m just transfixed watching the guys tear down.  I just love them.  Know what’s amazing to me, Gaz?”

“What’s that, Boss?”

“This very arena, so many of the greatest bands in the world have played here, Pearl Jam, Bruce Springsteen, Rolling Stones, Neil Young, Motorhead, even the Doors in their day.  It’s mind-blowing to know that this space has been used over and over again, filled with energy, ear-splitting noise, the raw hum of an excited crowd and people who work tirelessly to create something larger than life.  Like these guys.”

“And the beat goes on.  So uh, you ready to rock ‘n’ roll?”

Gaz is anxious to hit the after party because he answers me in song lyrics, that’s what he does.  “You go on ahead.  I’m going to sit here for a little while longer, eat my bagel and hang with the crew.”

“Boss, there are a lot of people waiting for you to celebrate.”

“They can wait.  Right now, I am celebrating them.”  I nod to the crew and bite my bagel.

**

That's all she wrote.  Now, I will work on today's prompt.  Not sure now much steam I have left but I'll give it a whirl.  Isn't really a prompt.  She says to turn your paper sideways and write, even with lines.  I can write anything I want.  Let's see how it goes.

In propinquity,
Nic